#tishomingo

[unteriors]

N Kemp Avenue, Tishomingo, Oklahoma.

[tetedurfarm]

i threw him in the snow and he just kinda deactivated and looked like he was clipping through the floor

[rarereceipts]

Gwen Stefani is loved by her fellow Okie's.

[americanbuildings]

Northwest room: north wall, with mantel - Billie Eaton House, Old Natchez Trace, Tishomingo, Tishomingo County, MS

[formerdetective]

Go Ahead & Break My Heart, September 30, 2017

[rarereceipts]

Tea 🫖

[americanbuildings]

West (front) elevation - Billie Eaton House, Old Natchez Trace, Tishomingo, Tishomingo County, MS

[betweenthings2]

Ok so im like 10 paragraphs into tishomingo (which. ITS TISHOMINGO ITS HERE HORSE BOY MATTY IS HERE IMSO EXCITED IM GONNABBE SICK??????) and i just cannot deal So. fic ask. evil smile

He sometimes gets looks or comments, brought on both by his accent and secondary gender, but those are few and far between, especially after he endears himself to the farm’s owner and his boss—a kind woman with grey hair named Mary, also an omega, who open carries a revolver on her hip—so he lives with it. In Tishomingo, Matty traded breeches and tall boots for jeans and cowboy boots, the sleek Thoroughbreds and imported warmbloods for slower, smaller Quarter Horses bred for western performance classes, not the eventers and jumpers Matty is used to. It’s different, but it isn’t, and it isn’t forever, the same way New England, Florida, and Kentucky hadn’t been forever.

!!!!!!! Love the "its different but it isnt" its making my chest hurt. and!!!! i love how u connected the Baby On Hip thing from earlier with the Revolver On Hip thing here. or maybe im insane. i love it either way. im so !!!

Matty spends Christmas working horses, but he heeds the invitation for Christmas dinner from the farm owner. He thinks it’s maybe a little bit odd to sit at his boss’s table for Christmas dinner with her adult children and parents, but the wine is good and the food is good and the people are kind. When he gets back to his little apartment and finally checks his phone for the first time since he turned off his alarm that morning, there’s a text from what his phone thinks is an unknown number with a +44 prefix.

NOBODY FUCKING MOVE EVERYBODY STILL EVERYBODY CALM OH MY GOD

Matty knows who it is, even if the number isn’t in his contact list. He couldn’t forget that number, not even if he tried. He couldn’t forget the person if he tried and he could never try.

About to be sick over this. HE COULD NEVER TRY u are so EVIL

It’s George who has texted, Matty knows. George texted him to say happy birthday, too, when he’d been in Kentucky, and Matty hadn’t replied. He’s not sure that he wants to reply now, either. He loves George, that much is undeniably true and completely unavoidable.

OH GOD oh my god hes texted BEFORE TOO???? im going to die. theyre so. i hate them. matty he will forgive u for anything Answer Him Before I Die oh my god my chest hurts

Before he ran, Matty wasn’t on heat suppressants, so his heats were spent with George, spent begging George for more, more, more, spent baring his neck so that George might leave a mating bite. Most of the other days were spent together, too, with George’s arm firmly around Matty’s waist.

All i can say is !!!!!!!!! I love how u always manage to make everything sad somehow like genuinely its. so good. somehow even mating bites are sad here. im going to explode in a good way. also !! "With georges arm firmly around mattys waist" !!!!!!!!

He’d liked that, liked living next to George. He’d followed George just about anywhere he was welcome, and in return, George followed him.

U need to stop this or ill start crying and never stop. Phone play follow my girl by the japanese house. im so <///3 i just love their dynamic and how theyre Always Together no matter what even when theyre not actually together and im just so emotional about them. the thought of matty just,,, following him. i cant describe how this is hurting me. im going insane

George would watch Matty’s lessons and schooling sessions leaned up against the area fence, would raise and lower and reset fences when Matty asked, would stand ringside at shows, Matty’s Kerrits backpack with the special spot for a riding helmet over his shoulder and scrim sheet in his arms with a rag to wipe dust from Matty’s boots before he went into the ring, even though he was never quite sure what to do with horses, and still got good photos.

Ok so i dont know Horse Things or a/b/o things properly but. the way its george doing stuff for matty. its so. theyre so Together that the usual dynamics dont apply. how uve written it as like "he would do x" as if its just because matty asked or wanted him to and no other reason like Omg stop

He doesn’t text George back.

MATTHEW...........

The Lucky he started working with was a confused and stiff and had a bad habit of bending only her neck when asked for any kind of bend, but now she’s much more relaxed and willing.

This is making me emotional. Shes trying her best!!! But mattys so nice to her so its ok. im emotional

Matty recognizes the person’s scent before he really sees them.

YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP RIGHT NOW

It’s warm spices and vanilla and sandalwood and suddenly Matty can’t move.

AJDND82KJX92JXWXPK2JXP2NX9NW9QNXOMWXOKWIFKEBFNWOXIHRK9WUXK

“Really,” George echoes, sincere. “I realize this isn’t exactly fair to you. I’ll go if that’s what you want, but,” he pauses, “it’s been two years.”

Im going to scream and cry and hit somebody I HATE THEM theyre so OH MY GOD even when hes being ridiculous and going all the way to tishomingo just for matty hes still Nice and Patient and oh my GOD im gonna die

“I’ve been trying to figure it out for two years, Matty,” George tries, softer. “I’ve missed you for two years. There’s been a fucking hole in my life for two years and I thought you’d come back, so tell me why you had to cut me out of your life. I loved you. I still do.”

Tearing up. this whole scene im literally going to die can we stop before i explode im gonna oh my god

“I have missed you. I think about you all the time, about how I miss you and what we were, what I wanted from you. At least stay until I’m done with Elvis?”

I hate you and them and im going to cry. what we were?????????????? what if i die??????!?!??!?!??!?! im going to die. ive died. this is so evil

“There are treats in the grooming box if you wanna give him one,” Matty offers. “He’ll be your new best friend for about five minutes if you do.”

“Do I need a new best friend?” George asks, voice soft. “I thought, well, ya’know.”

STOP IT????????????!????!?????? im literally gonna cry. do i need a new best friend:( theyre still best friends:( i need to pause and gather myself. Also george being kind of unsure and quiet about it:( sob

George shrugs. “I’d wanna watch if you stood in the middle of the arena and did absolutely nothing.”

I hate them. he loves matty so much im going to die

“A mate?” she echoes, imitating Matty’s accent. The first time she’d done that, he bristled, but they’ve become friendly over the past few months and he’s more amused that anything now.

!!!!!!!! theyre besties i love her already. also. mate. hehe

“Then how do you know you can’t be what he wants?”

U HAVE GOT TO STOP THIS. jen is a queen and id die for her though

“And we’re not now?” Matty asks. Two years ago, when he’d left, he’d been barely 21 and George 20. Plenty of people are mated by then and plenty more set to be mated, and even more by the time they’re his age now, just passed 23rd birthday (not that anyone around here knew when it was his birthday), or George’s age, 22.

Ok i know you said you were picturing them as kind of their abiior selves (unless i made that up but i cant check rn. sigh) but i just cant help but picture teeny tiny little baby gatty here :( they were just so small :( this is making me so sad like they were just babies and had all this sadness :( im gonna cry :(

Matty offers a little smile then goes to pour himself a cup of coffee, saying, “I think you might be kind of a softie, G.”

“You’re only realizing that now?”

Matty shakes his head and joins George at the table. “No. I’ve probably known that as long as we’ve known each other.”

IM GONNA CRY FOREVER i just cant even like . this is so . im gonna die

“Perfect?” George echoes. “You still left.”

This is so evil. every fic u write feels like hurts me more than the last. im so :(

“’cause you’re not different,” George says. He’s gentle about it, but he says it like it’s obvious. “You’re not a different person. You’re still you.”

Im going to die four hundred times. Youre still you. I am going . To explode .

but I, I miss my best friend. I wish you’d be my Matty again.”

Getting this tattooed on my arm so i can read it forever and always think about it because its so AAHXJWJXJWKDJKWNSKWJS. in a kind of heartbroken obsessed insane way

“I just,” Matty pauses, “what if I do the wrong thing? What if I make the wrong decision? What if he wants me barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen forever? What if he wants something I can’t give? What if he wants me to be someone I’m not, someone I can’t be?”

This is causing me actual physical pain oh my god :( i need to hug him and also shake him by the shoulders (and tell him off) omg im gonna die. and again the way every single word is just so SAD. !!! U always capture the energy of things perfectly its so good but also it hurts me so STOPIT. What if he wants me to be someone im not!!!!!!!! Evil!!!!!

Just. All of this fic. I wish i could put it all in this ask and just go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At every line. Its so wonderful. I love the "my matty" + "my george" thing. And matty going !!!!!home!!!!! to george!!!!! Also this bit “One more morning is going to keep being one more morning.” !!! so good !!! And !! Matty realising he kind of,,, doesnt like himself,,, and is insecure,,,,, i just love literally everything about this fic and im gonna think about it for the next like 3 weeks. Ok im gonna go and read it again love u bye 💞

Fic ask, fic ask!! Thank you so much!! I love asks like this so much =) I'm putting my responses here under the cut because I have so many things to say.

That is a thing about horses, I think—it’s all different, but it’s all kind of the same. There was going to be a bit about the revolver being for rattlesnakes, but I couldn’t quite fit it in, so it just became part of the character design.

Can you tell I was working on this over Christmas break?

He could never forget! He’ll know forever, whether he wants to or not. But he wants to. Lets be honest, he wants to.

Of course he’s texted before!! It’s fictional!George. What else would he do?

The saddest mating bite there ever was! They were always together and they took such good care of each other but I’m going to make it sad!

They’d follow each other anywhere! They love each other so much! Fictional!George followed fictional!Matty all the way to Oklahoma.

My time to shine and tell you about horse things! Fancy Kerrits backpack linked here. I have a backpack like this and when I was competing and taking lessons, it was so nice to have. There’s a little spot for your helmet and a side pocket with a little velcro loop for a crop and good space for snacks (horse and human) and riding gloves and all your important stuff. Cannot recommend enough. And a scrim sheet is linked here. It’s a lightweight sheet that you put on your horse while you’re waiting at shows to keep dust off your horse and tack and it’s absolutely the kind of thing that ends up with whoever is at a show with you. And fictional!George would never ever complain about it because he wants to do things for fictional!Matty. He’s there to be with fictional!Matty.

Of course he didn’t text back. It’s fictional!Matty.

Lucky! Fictional!Matty loves his ponies (all inclusive) and he’s making progress with them! Lucky’s doing so well! I love her!

He knows fictional!George! He’ll always know fictional!George!

!!!!!

He has to be so nice and patient! Fictional!Matty would probably send him on his way if he wasn’t and there’s not a universe out there where he wants to be anything other than nice and patient with fictional!Matty.

It’s been so long! Fictional!George thought they had something but fictional!Matty left and what was he supposed to do with that? How was he supposed to understand that? All the love in the world and fictional!Matty still left.

What they were! He thinks about what they were and he wishes they could go back to that, but he can’t help running away. That’s what he does. That’s what safe, but he wants fictional!George to stay for, like, ever.

They are best friends! They’re still best friends! Even after all this time and even though fictional!Matty is a mess and fictional!George isn’t all that sure what to do with everything, they’re still best friends! He doesn’t need a new best friend, never mind that every single horse I’ve ever known like this is only your best friend for about five minutes until they’re looking for someone else to give them snacks.

He just wants to be there with fictional!Matty. He just wants to hang out with the person he loves!  

I thought fictional!Matty needed someone to just be friendly with who wasn't, like, a part of things, and I like to make all of my OCs women, so Jen!

Jen is a queen! I love her. I want to be besties with her.

They're babies! I would make made them older, but, like I said, I think fictional!Matty has to be that young to be stupid confused enough to run away, but they're so young and things kinda suck so bad, and they don't know much except that they love each other!

They're so soft about each other. Like, endlessly, eternally, forever so soft about each other!

Poor fictional!George. This fic kind of over looks the fast that fictional!Matty just left fictional!George for years with nothing. He's handled it better than anybody could expect and he's going to fix it if it kills him (metaphorically speaking) but fictional!Matty left! And now he says fictional!George was perfect? He's calling bullshit.

Fictional!George knows him! He'd know him anywhere, any way. Two years is nothing! This is his Matty and he'll always, always know his Matty.

My Matty!! I've felt insane about that since I wrote it.

Fictional!Matty is so insecure! And he loves fictional!George and he knows fictional!George isn't going to ask for something like that, but what if he does? Fictional!Matty can't handle losing him again, not like that.

My Matty!! And my George!! That was actually not the planned ending, so there is an alternate ending somewhere in depths of my beloved laptop, but fictional!Matty liked it when fictional!George called him "my Matty," and he wanted to be fictional!George's, so that's the ending I went with.

And one more morning! It's like turning your alarm off in the morning and going "fifteen more minutes and then somehow it's been an hour and you're about to be late to Pilates or something. Not that I'm speaking from experience or anything.

And poor fictional!Matty. He's kind of an idiot, but he figured it out eventually! And he went home!