Okok,lets ask serious question..that aren’t serious at all but I like to ask you question about TMI
Do you have sad/angst headcanons about Magnus?
Because I have some and i fear that i might be the only one–
I AM SO SORRY TMI ANON IT TOOK ME 10 DAYS TO RESPOND 😭😭
anyways these are like really bad, i wrote them after crying over ithaca saga again 😭👍
He has a small flower garden. There is one flower for each lover he has had. Alec's flower is the only one that isn't withering.
Magnus has always loved animals, but most of his lovers have hated them, so he has never been able to get any pets. (Until Chairman Meow. And Alec The Awesome™
Magnus puts on a carefree front, but inside he is really worried how he is perceived and how he could offend others
He prefers to not have many friends, since he fears he will hurt them (Alec made that veeeery hard.) (#willherondalecore)
Magnus believes he is (metaphorically) cursed with bad luck.
He is prone to panic attacks and before Alec, Chairman Meow used to help him through them. (cat. we like cat. yes cat.)
He fears being a father, since he remembers his fathers (demon parent + stepfather)
t r a u m a
Magnus often tries to (NY often excluded, since Alec) avoid any Institutes, not wanting to run into hostile Shadowhunters.
A lot of the time he does Alec's chores for him and overworks himself. (So Alec pulls the uno reverse card and does the same for Magnus whenever he's out >:) )
i haven't gotten my periods since like mid feb and im FREAKING OUT im a minor so im not pregnant or anything so its probably just stress but im so scared..
my mom isnt taking me to the gyno for a few more weeks and i just akjhfdjks im so scared theres something wrong with me
Hi! <3
There's a lot of reasons why this could happen and I am DEFINITELY not a doctor, but most people don't have completely regular cycles. The first time I got my period was in september of 7th grade, and then i didn't get it again until june. I found out the reason was because I have PCOS, which is SUPER common, and one of the many reasons your cycle might be irregular. It's also not deadly or anything like that. You have no reason to be nervous, everyone's cycle is different. I would just say that in my experience, a lot of times, gynos jump to putting people with irregular cycles on birth control without figuring out the reason behind it or like...thinking about the consequences. If the gyno suggest BC, I'd talk about the pros and cons of this, the side effects, and if you want to be on BC longterm. Some people LOVE BC because it makes their cycle regular and it has side effects that they like (it commonly helps with acne and lessens body hair). I was talked into BC at 13 and didn't realize that a lot of the things I experienced as a teen might have been made worse by my BC. I wish I had asked more questions before agreeing to it, and being on it continuously for over ten years. I'm not saying it's a bad thing AT ALL, I'm just saying make sure to ask questions and do what's right for you!
Feel free to ask me any questions you want about my experience, just remember I'm one person and not a professional!
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AVPD anon
Hi <3
Honestly, it sounds like you don't have a very good support system. Your friends don't sound like bad PEOPLE but they don't seem to be acting like good friends to you right now. You've got a lot going on, and you deserve the support that you're giving others. You deserve love, you know?
Do you think it might be a good idea to try to branch out and find some other friends? You don't have to leave these ones, but maybe looking for some people who are more supportive could help you cope with these really stressful things.
Sending love <3
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trans imposter syndrome anon
hey cas
do you ever feel
like not “trans enough”
like i’ll look at my trans friends and trans people on the internet and i’ll just be like
my identity
isn’t as
valid?
like ik it is
everyone’s identities are valid yesyes but like…
trans imposter syndrome
is that just me?
like i can have all the dysphoria and euphoria and issues and yet still be like maybe im not trans enough for this
like ive never felt like a cis person
or like
what a cis person feels
and i’ve never felt what any other trans person feels
and what if like i’m not actually trans and i’m just cis and i just don’t know what it’s like to be an actual trans person
lmao does that make any sense
if not i’m sorry!
Hi!
Um YES. Every day. All the time. I think a lot of people feel like this about their gender tbh. It sucks because there's a lot of stereotypes when it comes to trans-ness and you don't have to fit into those stereotypes to be trans!
I promise you, there's no such thing as being 'trans enough.' and if there was....you're 'trans enough' for me <3
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(un)grounded anon
Hello again!
So I have less family drama, but a hell of a lot if school drama (end of the year, am I right?)
Anyway, so I have 2 (ex) friends that were SPREADING RUMORS ABOUT ME and talking shit about me.
Context: so back in like febuary this HUGE rumor got out that me and my bsf were dating. Now, I live in rural Texas so I was being constantly harassed. I'm telling g you, at least 5 people woukd walk hl to me and be like 'are you and (insert bsf name here) dating?
And for a while, I had no idea who spread the rumor. I had suspicions, but I never acted on them. So, come this week. In talking to my friend and don't ask me how we got here, but she was telling me that friend one and friend 2 had been talking major shit about me (especially friend 2) and had been he ones spreading rumors about me. She also said friend one hadbee making fun of my DISABLED big brother. I did confront him about this, and instead of APLOGIZING he deflected onto friend 2 and refused to take accountability for anything.
I haven't gotten to speak to friend 2 yet, and im not sure what to say. I considered her one of my bsf but instead she spread rumors about me and talked shit. She apparently said she actually didn't like me as much as se like my REAL bsf. And the worst part? She was the main reason I got kicked out from my old friend group and lost all my friends
Yeah, sry for the yapathon. Family isn't so great either. My mom is mad at me for having reasonable reasons to support abortion and keeps sending me Facebook vids of MEN talking about how bad abortion is.
Thanks for your advice,
-(un) grounded anon
(P.s. you don't have to remove the word thingies. Half the time i don't remember what I wrote lol.)
Hi <3
Honestly, I would not wish school drama on anyone. It's awful, and I'm so sorry you have to deal with that bullshit. It's one of the great things about growing up...you don't have to deal with that shit nearly as much. Those people sound like shit.
Also I'm sorry your mom listens to men...like at all (joking) (maybe)
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mirrorball anon
Hi Cas! ^_^ Yes mirrorball anon is fine I just for some reason thought you already had one lmao
Anyway
I try not to let the prior mentioned shitty people bother me but my brain keeps telling me it’s all my fault, to the point I’m convinced I’m crazy and caused all the issues myself
My brain is also constantly trying to convince me no one will actually stay, because no one has before
I just want to feel like a person again yk? Without constant worry of being a fuck up and ruining something else I care about
And btw you give really good advice
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Hi!
Not listening to your brain is one of the hardest things to do, tbh. Because like....it's always there. Have you tried looking at yourself in the mirror and saying positive things that are the opposite of what your brain says?
It sounds stupid, and it IS a bit cringe, but it can be helpful. It's also strangely emotional and like...cathartic.
Also remember it's okay to ask for reassurance from time to time. People who care will give you the reassurance that you ARE loved and you DIDN'T fuck up.
TMI anon (new), ahead and behind anon, reddit anon (new)
TMI anon (new)
This is almost definitely too much information about my body but like I don’t know who to tell so ig I tell you? I don’t know 😭
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Hi hon!
Okay so I am most definitely not a doctor but as far as I have been told, this is normal if it happens occasionally and without a lot of pain. If you are in pain, though, or your periods start to get more irregular, then I would go to a doctor. If your next cycle also has some weird stuff then it’s much better to check in with a professional, though I still wouldn’t be scared- nothing I can think of is life threatening and I am VERY good at freaking out about health issues.
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Ahead and behind anon
hii it's ahead and behind anon! hope you're having a good day :)
i got some of tests back and i improved quite a lot for some subjects which is crazy but it's still not good enough yk? like C6 -> A2 is a whole jump by 4 grades but like. it's not good enough. because i know i could've gotten A1 like. One mark away from A1 type situation for two of them. I'm also kind of shocked because what do you mean my science and math subjects are doing better than my humanities? Like maybe it's because the papers for sciences and maths were easy this time but if they were easy wouldn't i have gotten higher marks? ugh. and people say the marking is strict but no? i think they need to be stricter. like. if it's so lenient, what if during exams the same type of question comes out, we put the same type answer and it isn't accepted? so like. maybe just me.
and i know my grades are doing better than some of my friends now for some subjects so I shouldn't complain, but at the same time, why would they settle for an A2? A2 is bad. A1 is what they should aim for, I feel. Like they tell me to lower my expectations which is kind of insulting because 1) are they implying they think I can't hit those? and 2) why would they drag my expectations down to be on the same level as theirs? they're satisfied when they hit the A1 marks, I'll only be satisfied with the highest marks possible, we are NOT the same. but I get them ig.
and like idk if it's me but i feel kinda burnt out? now? which is like bad because it's only about 5 ish months to exams. i get so tired even at the thought of homework because I have something nearly everyday after school and not enough time to split between all my homework and school and what not. like I genuinely don't want to study sometimes with how much stuff there is to balance now. and like there's so much things to revise and not enough time at all. no one is serious about revising rn at all. like. AHHH. and everyone is rushing to finish the syllabus and I am a slow learner so it takes me a while to get the concept so that means I have to work extra hard to just match my peers and it's annoying because like. why can't i just be naturally smart ykwim. like idm doing normal revision, I like doing that, but I do mind having to do a lot of extra work just to catch up to everyone else yk? like. yeah. anyways that's all, have a nice day / night :))
Hi hon!
Congrats on the newest scores, that’s awesome!
Honestly, I think you’re feeling burnt out because you’re pushing yourself so much. I think that your friends have the right idea, though they might be saying it in the wrong way. You’re right- you absolutely can shoot for the highest scores. But to expect yourself to already have them NOW when you still have five months to prepare is just…a lot to put on yourself! You’re going to burn yourself out before you get to the exams and set yourself up for failure. Instead of expecting perfection now, do a little each day to eventually get to that high score. As the say, Rome wasn’t built in a day, you know?
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Reddit anon (new)
cas i genuinely cannot with reddit anymore. it’s like redditors just forget that there’s actual people behind the post?? i’m not even talking about aita, where it’s still understandable on a case to case basis. they’re willing to nitpick just about everything? you can ask people for college advice, or make a post on the chance me subreddit and forget about being helpful, they’re just straight up awful. it was the same thing that happened when i made this post asking whether writing about other ethnicities’ struggles was appropriate or not and half the people’s replies sounded like they were written in a fit of rage. and somehow they’re also incredibly wrong too while being as rude as they are. how do half the people not understand the difference between brutal honesty and straight up assholery?
Hi! Yeah Reddit can definitely be brutal. I think that’s definitely the culture of that specific site but also the internet in general- it’s a lot easier to say whatever you want when it’s behind a screen. People forget that there are people on the other side and it can really suck sometimes. I’m sorry that others were so harsh to you!
I DONT KNOW HOW!! i can never get that far... i have chronic pain and fatigue too so that makes it harder but even when im feeling good i just cant bring myself to keep going when i get overwhelmed 🙏🙏
-tmi anon
just saying it’s okay if u haven’t orgasm yet, but trust me, maybe try once? or u don’t have to at all! cause it feels really really good. just once, then stop, take a breath and see how it feels :)
I was scrooling though tumbrl but then I saw your post an di was like "wait I know this acc!"
Then i found out that months ago i sended to you sole asks about the mortal instruments, signing myselft ad "TMI anon" or something really i can't remembe
Hi! This is the TMI-anon, in case you remember. (Also, same anon who shared Viena and the Fantomes hair-dye tidbit. Fun fact.) Anyways, I've watched Moulin Rouge today and Ewan McGregor is so deliciously pathetic and whiny in this movie and has such sad, huge, blue puppy dog eyes that, of course, it reminded me of Carmy. Now I'm fantasizing about an AU in which Carmy falls head over heels for a sex worker and is absolutely plagued and destroyed by jealousy. In the movie, there's this great angsty scene where Ewan yells at Nicole Kidman with absolute despair that he just wants to pay for her, if she doesn't love him like he loves her, and absolutely loses it because she won't allow it. And I ate that shit up. Maybe Carmy would meet her because she hangs out around the parking lot by The Beef. Maybe they interact because a John oversteps a line and he intervenes, maybe they meet due to some miscommunication and he doesn't even initially understand who and what she is. The movie just got my creative juices flowing and made me yappy.
Just an idea I thought you might enjoy (?) I desperately want to read a story about that now. (This is not a request though, dw, just some yapping and whining.)
Hi tmi ignore that you sent this in NOVEMBER but are you aware of @saltnsugarbear stripper au 🧎🏼♀️ I think you’ll enjoy
