Oct 22, 2024
The 'she never would've let you leave if she didn't have a spare' trope genuinely haunts me. It keeps me up at night. I truly wonder deeply and profoundly abt it every single day. i haven't even read Choices yet the label of spare haunts every single interpretation I will ever have of regulus arcturus black. he can never not have a brother, even when he doesn't. even when he responds "barty and evan are fine, thanks for asking.' even when he feels like his brother will never forgive him for the sacrifices he has had to make. every word he speaks, every thing he does every breath he takes is all through the lens of being the safety blanket for a loose cannon of a sibling and it haunts me.
#regulus black#the noble and most ancient house of black#marauders#mauraders#choices#ahb#art heist baby#To the Boy Who...#ao3 fanfic#doomed by the narrative#imagine living your entire life with this label you will never escape#and then in the end the person you are supposed to step up for outlives you#dead gay wizards#marauders era#even#trans regulus#cannot escape it#becuase#he's the back up nobody can use so he's essentially useless because no girl can be an heir but he isnt a girl but nobody sees it that way#and#he only gets to transition when sirius leaves and its like a constant reminder that he is the spare the only thing that makes him unique#and its used as a constant reminder that he is simply the back up for the throw away child#and then you look at it through the lens of their abuse and omg I fear I cannot breathe thinking abt it ughhhh