alright, i'm on hyper-self conscious mode lately, so i think i'm gonna lay off the weed until the fourth of july week when me and my family go to the beach. (the beach is pretty lonely and i have to entertain myself at it since none of the gathering families have anyone in my age range :/) then after that's over, i'll schedule another break depending on how much i do at the beach, which is hopefully a tolerable yet not excessive amount. it's a once every year opportunity though, and this is my first time actually having Weed and the guts to nab some alcohol, so i'd like to stop smoking weed until then so if i DO go hard i'll have that period of abstinence under my belt to not feel like a fucking chimney. tomorrow, i lay outside by the pool and swim! do some reading, maybe play some DR and make allie and jack watch more rick and morty with me.