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[akewanchan]

hello, sorry for no new translations in a while.

i have been dealing with detoriating health through 2025 which reached its peak late dec and early 2026.

i will spare the details but normally it should be something i can recover from once i am put on treatment but that will be for sometime around later this month. and then it will be a slow progress.

i am hoping to resume with translating again around april or may atleast. i miss translating but it is hard to concentrate or find any motivation in this state unfortunately. in general i have no interest or energy to do anything but play video games and sleep which is a bit of a sad life.

again i will be ok! but just wanted to let everyone know i haven't stopped or quit, i am just dealing with issues unfortunately. (i will be reblogging this to my other sideblog because it will be the same post anyway)

[my-ohh-mai]

Mental health.

I'm really losing myself. My mental health has been so bad. I'm unhappy every day and my parents treat me like an errand mule with no gratitude. I do all the grocery shopping. I wash sometimes 40-60lbs of laundry a week. I cook and clean. I try to take care of my mom's anxiety attacks and all of her other issues. My brother and father always put me down. I just want to go to the hospital and cry. I can't cry in my own room without being questioned. "Why are you acting like this?" They all treat me like my mental health doesn't matter. I'm so tired of it. The hospital just rushes you out of there if you aren't psychotic/schizophrenic or bipolar. I really wish I didn't deny my chance at going to that respite center. I tell my therapists that I'm generally unhappy and even they don't know what to say. Depression and anxiety are swallowing me up. I'm struggling. I don't know what to do besides exist. The highlight of my days are going to sleep, and even then I get nightmares and wake up screaming. There's never any fucking peace. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't here.

[evcryopeneye]

I have my scan tomorrow and my biopsy on wednesday morning, I’m still super upset with some friends who are basically acting like this is a non-thing, nothing like people being dismissive to cut you right down to size. I guess they are right in a way, that it’s not likely to be the big C. 

I’m just, emotionally exhausted from this whole stress inducing shit, and also the idea that I’m far more alone than I thought I was. Dealing with this shit is hard at the best of times, not when you are separated from your family by 3000+ miles on your own in a foreign land. 

And I have to put this one the dash but yeah, theres nowhere else I feel I can put it. 

[gempassionatearchived]

So I finally gave up and went to my doctors today. I was tested for strep throat and came out negative. However they tested me for the Flu and I apparently have H1N1 (whatever that is). How did I even contract this virus? Lmao. I feel more and more like death.

[kendallroynsfw]

(a western honeybee can live for 152 days)

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: And that’s all for now. A bit anticlimactic ending, but Jean is still struggling with writting his summarizations and scores and everything, and the fact that it’s 31 degrees Celsius is not helping at all. As soon as he has something for us, I shall translate it and add it to the correct tags.

EDIT: oh, if you are wondering, Jean didn’t add anything to the last part of this short, when they show new intro, since he was watching this just after SttS and already commented on it a lot.

[ncnducor]

guess who just sat nearly 4hrs in a fucking emergency room after only sleeping for 4hrs and being awake since 3am ( for an opening shift mind you ) just to be told to come back if it gets worse / doesn’t go away. bitch my forehead is numb and I don’t fucking know why, I just know that it feels weird, and irritating and wrong and is bordering on painful and I’m dealing with this shit now since three fucking weeks, but yeah sure, I’ll be back if it doesn’t get better / get’s worse.

[flawsinourcxdexarchived-blog]

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