#togermany

[nerwenssnailmailobsession]

Outgoing to Solveig in Germany.  It is the time of the year again where I hoard my letters, as exams are coming up. I am a lot in the Uni library and I have a 180 minutes presentation today. Yeah! Exams are in 4 weeks plus I have to write 2 paper and do one more presentation after that one today. So I am busy and I don’t know how much time I have for letters, as I am so happy to not write a few hours/per day. Hope you’ll understand.

[runnerwithpride]

So I'm not putting this on my exchange blog because it is a little more personal to me.

I was a bit worried about going to Germany, because I am gay. I know they are very accepting typically, but just coming out to my host parents, host sisters, classmates etc. So I was talking to this girl I know lives in Bavaria, and it turns out, she is gay too. She was on exchange here and she gave me great advice, and turns out to be super nice and cute as well. Score! I made a cool friend. 

[healthyfithappyme]

I might be moving to Germany.

Worst news ever. 

Don't get me wrong I like Germany, in fact I love it.

BUT I'm going to be a senior next year and I was quite happy with the fact that I was going to be living in America. 

Now I will be even farther from everything and everyone I love and I won't get my license.

And on top of this my dad does not give a single shit that I wanna stay here in the U S of A. Neither does my mom.  

I'm quite certain nothing will get better out of this situation. 

We were supposed to move to New York. I actually have a friend who lives there and I was kind of excited to move there. 

But I do have to look at the positives:

I am lucky enough to have a roof over my head.

I'm healthy.

I have a warm bed at night.

Both of my parents are healthy and here.

And I may be fortunate enough to not only visit Europe again, but live there.

I just wished this would have happened some other time. Not now, not in my senior year.