April/2025🌘♊️I ALWAYS keep myself. I AWAYS find a way. Sealed in the dharmakaya. May ALL brings be happy. May ALL beings be free. May ALL suffering be resolved. May Goodness prevail.
🌘 < 🚑 Stanley the strange…please keep the animals away from me. No. I am trying to develop a friendship with you, or rather an understanding. I doubt a friendship is possible because it would require you to change more than I believe you are capable of changing. I don’t mean to be pessimistic, but it is what it is, with or without you. I know you better than you think and you only see me on a surface level. Those levels there are no words for, because it’s on a plane of existence that is and is not. Somehow we need to ground that knowledge into something new. I know - your illusions - and I don’t know who or what you’ve become these days. I want you to ponder that. You know I NEED protection. I also need my PERSONAL space. Again, please give me the time and space I need. I’m asking you because you offered to help me. I give you nothing you don’t want or need. Balance. Do what you need/want to do. Let me do what I need/want to do. Can we balance that?
🌘 < ♂ What I understand is on so many levels. As an artist I hope you can start to appreciate that, because if you can understand that, you might finally begin to RESPECT me. I AM never going to expect you to fully understand me, or my work, because it is MY journey. You however, are going to have to start reaching out on a tangible level, if you ever want MY RESPECT. You have to earn my RESPECT by trusting my process, because I process more than you realize all the fucking time. RESPECT is a two way street. Understand? I AM very strong, but unable to reconcile anything in my life. I HAVE A LIFE I want to live. We are ALL here to LEARN the lessons of life and love under the will of God. Don’t play God with me, there is only one God. I can pull you in or push you out, but this weird as fuck, merry-go-round goes nowhere. I want to move forward, please.
🌘 ☸︎ 🌞 I was hoping Thom understood. It was as an astrological gamble. You see I harnessed intuitively a great amount of spiritual awareness and sort of balanced it with a ‘Jack of all trades’ awareness on an esoteric level, then I grounded that with my knowledge of improvisational theatre. I always empty my cup. I allow the subconscious to bring forth what I need to know, when I need to know it. I trust my process because, it has kept me alive, thus far. What else can I do or say? My spiritual journey is my own. You can’t own my soul. Why the fuck would anyone want to own or control another human life, like an animal? The dark motivation for these savages eludes me. I can barely comprehend their existence and yet, I feel a responsibility to help. I can’t help it. Tom Kenyon is an important pioneer in sound healing. He will tell you he is just the ‘pizza delivery boy’ to spiritual awareness. It’s like the Matrix, you simply download a state of thought and integrate it into your life and let whatever unfolds, unfold. I resonate with his work because it has been what I have been trying to do with art/improvisation. I’m not trying to sell me, I’m showing you through me. That’s as close as I can describe to the way I have been working through my own obstacles. Everyone wants to keep me in a box, so I act like a ‘Jack-in-the-box.’ Wind me up and I might show you some of my awareness.
🌘🔺🎸 Where do the children play? Why do the ‘elite’ constantly force other humans, into a state of arrested development? How the fuck are we supposed to evolve as a species under the conditions which are forced upon the general populace? We should edify one another, in order to promote growth.
🌘▪️🌽 No one takes me out to dinner. No one talks to me like a human being. Everyone seems to think they know a secret about me that is utter bullshit. I already know their bullshit. It’s so prevalent in our culture now, that these ‘secrets’ everyone already knows, have warped our reality. I want real relationships with real people who wish to really PLAY. I AM tired of being told I AM something or someone I AM not. I AM tired of being everything and nothing to no one. This isn’t living. I WANT TO LIVE. It is my HUMAN RIGHT as a HUMAN BEING.
🌘 ☌ ♃︎ Whatever has been stolen from me, needs to be given back to me. I deserve to live comfortably. I deserve to be independent and free to do whatever the fuck I want to do, with the LIFE God has given me, for Christ sake.
🌘 < ♇︎ I wasn’t there, I was never there when things got too dark. It was only you, rolling around in your own ego issues. I can only offer you advice, which you can take or leave. I doubt you want to proceed any further with me, because a journey with me is a narrow and lonely path…for some. I’ll ask you to leave everything and nothing behind. Can you stay still enough to be present with me? Again, I have little confidence because you have not done anything to earn my trust. I don’t want or need some romantic relationship. What I want and need is friends whom I can learn from and collaborate with. Why does everyone constantly treat me like a fucking whore bot animal? I AM so tired of the same conversations with the same people, whom always disappoint me, by refusing to move forward. Look at that picture of me. I AM standing still like a hummingbird, when I should be free.
There really should be a fifth, seat at that table. I AM not there. No one ever invites me out to dinner…
(it’s an esoteric joke and you don’t get it, because you don’t get ME…whatever. *Hint, I AM there and not there.)
