valentines day - jo chanhyuk
A/N: i intended for this to be a drabble esp since i literally just put it together really quickly in my notes app pshshs i hope it’s not too long to be considered one ;-; but yes pls enjoy either way!! it’s so cute and fluffy
[1:30pm]
it’s valentines day and once again you don’t have a romantic interest to spend this day with. usually you would spend this day going on a ‘date’ with your best friends, but for the first time in your life they all have significant others they would rather be spending this day with. it never used to bother you that you were alone on this day, knowing that it’s just a capitalist scam and just an excuse for companies to exploit & bribe couples and make single people feel like shit for being single. well it was working this time. you did feel like shit for being alone this year, suddenly the streets were filled with couples everywhere or people on their way to see their significant others; roses, chocolates & extravagant gifts in hand. when you got back to your unit you were so thankful, finally free from couples and ‘love’ being shoved down your throat, leaning back against your door with a sigh. you get changed into your pajamas, light some candles in your bathroom and prepare to run a bath - you were going to be your own valentine and pamper yourself, show yourself some love. you picked up the phone preparing to order some takeout when your doorbell rings. you look through the peephole and feel your heart skip a beat in your chest, you open the door with the gobsmacked look unknowingly still on your face.
“c-chan? what are you doing here?” you stuttered. chan had been your friend for a long time, you two were never super close but he was still a part of your friend group that you’ve had since high school.
“when i heard you were spending this valentines day alone, i couldn’t help myself” he smiles, handing you the bouquet he bought for you, along with a plushie of your favourite sanrio character with a balloon attached to it.
“oh… but still you didn’t have to get me anything chan, and why didn’t you just call me and actually make plans with me you dummy? i feel bad that you came all the way over to my house” you move over so he can come in.
“i know, but i couldn’t come empty handed. plus, the element of surprise is always better” he chuckles, shuffling his shoes off.
“but now i’m in my pajamas and i have my bath running, with surprise i can’t be prepared and look nice” you whine, moving to your kitchen to put the gifts on the bench.
“hey now, don’t say that you look gorgeous regardless - perhaps even more so” he smiles sweetly. you roll your eyes and go to your bathroom to turn the tap to the bath off. he waits in the kitchen for you and when you return he seems off.
“are you okay?” you giggle, laughing at his sudden stiffness. he awkwardly laughs in response.
“look i can’t hold it in anymore” he groans at himself.
“hold in what? if you need to pee you can go” you laugh.
“i- what? no! i have a confession” he yells. your stomach drops, was he going to say what you think he’s going to say?
“well, get on with it then” you’re so thankful you’re not facing him right now and are washing your dishes instead, otherwise he’d see your face suddenly being so pale.
“i.. like you. i have liked you since high school and i know that might seem farfetched because we’ve both dated people in that time but i only did it in hopes of getting my mind off you, especially since you were always the one to date other people first. it killed me inside, and i can’t live with these emotions hidden away anymore. i don’t expect you to feel the same but i hope it doesn’t make things awkward, i don’t want to lose you” he rambles, not breathing once. you freeze, almost dropping your plate on the floor. you turn around quickly, staring at him in shock.
“are you serious chanhyuk? i liked you for almost two whole years, i was whipped!!” you screamed, storming up to him with your arms crossed.
“i know! but i didn’t find out until after you started dating that dude… what was his name, david? and i only started to really fall for you after that. when i found out i was so heartbroken, our friends didn’t let me live that down and still don’t” chan confesses.
“so? what do you expect me to do?! you can’t just dump this on me out of nowhere…” you feel so confused, your heart is about to beat out of your chest.
“i don’t know… i don’t expect anything, i told you that. i just couldn’t hold it in anymore, it’s been a really long time that i’ve been holding this all in” he exhales harshly.
“i mean i, never really lost feelings for you. you don’t ever really lose feelings for your first love, right? you still make my heart skip a beat sometimes, like when i saw you outside of my door i almost fainted” you mumble, not even knowing what you’re saying.
“really?” he asks, his cheeks turning pink. “yeah… i guess i never really addressed it myself and just pushed it to the back of my mind because i was too scared, especially after all this time” you say more to yourself than to him.
“i see” chan replies, not knowing what to say at all. you fiddle with your fingers, unable to look up at him. he grabs your hands, rubbing his thumbs over yours. you look up at him in surprise. he leans in slowly, kissing your cheek, then the side of your lips. his face freezes right in front of yours, lips ghosting over yours ever so slightly. it’s as if he was testing the waters & waiting to see if you’d move away or not, which he was. your lips are aching to feel his against them, your eyes not moving their frozen gaze from his lips just inches from yours. you can’t take it anymore and you lean in, connecting your lips together. chan lets out an exhale from his nose, clearly relieved that you made the move. his arms wrap around your waist and your arms move to his shoulders. you’ve never felt such fireworks while kissing someone before in your life, it was ethereal & heavenly. it was so passionate and filled with all the love and heartache you felt for each other all these years, as if the universe was finally celebrating that you two had finally come together. you both pull away, absolutely breathless and in shock.
“well that was definitely worth waiting for” chan breathes.