#too giving

[thedustyrecord]

when Trista Mateer said:

"I still remember you as little girl who overwaters plants because she doesn't know when to stop giving"

and when José Olivarez said:

"I killed a plant once because I gave it too much water. Lord, I worry that love is violence."

[notmyfries666]

When I hear certain narratives of me I think to myself hmm ..

To think there was a time my heart was completely exposed to these people, at their service to use on a whim.. slowly it closed up due to situations.. wrapped in feelings of hurt, insecurities and confusion..

Thank God too cause the way these narratives would've ripped my heart to shreds had I not wrapped it up slowly over time.. away from them..

[pippinboi]

Honestly Woo's episode. It makes me realise we are very a like in a lot of ways. He enjoys other people's company a lot but need to recharge alone. He gives and he gives and doesn't expect anything in return. He gives his all no matter what so that, he can see the smiles on other peoples faces.

He is the most giving human being I've ever seen. He works and works so he can have more of a presence on stage, he literally said HE WOULD RATHER PASS OUT AFTER THE SHOW THAN STOP PERFORMING. I imeadeatly broke. He doesn't care about anything he goes through as long as other people around him are happy. He does everything for his Carats. I....

I want to tell him not to tho. I want to sit him down and lecture him that nothing is more important than his health. I understand that's where he gets his passion and his drive but.... Seeing him breathing hard, seeing him nearly fall over. That was something do scary. I don't want any of them to get to that, point.

I also want to tell him, there are times, even when he isn't saying or doing anything, that even tho there are 13 people on that, stage, he is the only one I can see. He is like a breath of fresh air when he speaks. I want him to know that, if I could, I would lie with him, stroke his hair, read him a story. Just allow him to relax and feel safe for once. He's doing so much for other people, I want to do something for him.

[potatoesareus]

Sometimes I wonder...

why do I even bother? Why do I keep helping people when no one listens? When I’m constantly dismissed? Honestly, if I just stopped giving, would anyone notice? Or would they just keep going on with their lives, therefore revealing the triviality of my help anyway?

Sorry...just frustrated by the lack of fucks people in my personal life seem to give.

[heady-senpai]

Never risk yourself or your soul for someone who doesn't feel inclined to do the same. Confirm before conforming.

[methandmacaroni]

For my birthday this year, I'm giving everyone pictures of myself.

[ireneelizawhat]

There's still a piece of me thats still angry and upset about the entire situation... But I will ALWAYS put other's before myself.

Everyone else's happiness comes first. 

And if I sit back and evalute my entire situation here...its rather sickening. I think I have a problem.