#top playlists

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Jon playlist, complete with sound effects! (It is 100% meant to be listened to in order bc some of the songs DEFINITELY need context)

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Roughly In-Order Daedalus Playlist

(ft. a cover image from NASA)

1. “Spaceship” by Art Sorority (“Get-get-get inside your spaceship/You don't have a car, but you don't have to take this/.../You could really go, no one's gonna stop you (2x)/.../When I've had enough of dying in the day shift/I'll pack myself a pair of socks and get inside a spaceship”)

2. “An Ending (Ascent)” by Brian Eno (instrumental)

3. “Starlight” by Muse (“Far away/The ship is taking me far away/Far away from the memories/Of the people who care if I live or die/.../Our hopes and expectations/Black holes and revelations”)

4. “Antigravity” by STARSET - Manuela - (“Above the earth I am transformed/The energy has set me free/And pulled me through the galaxy/I've risen up beyond the sky/I am awake, I am alive”)

5. “Ladies and Gentlemen We Are Floating in Space” by Spiritualized - everyone, but especially fitting for both Carter and Manuela - (“Ladies and gentlemen we are floating in space/.../All I want in life's a little bit of love/To take the pain away/Getting strong today/A giant step each day/.../And float in space and drift in time/All the time until I die”)

6. “Windowpane” by Mild High Club (“Leave behind/Just too delicate to/.../Things; they seem different/In my mind, we were experimenting/Life passes on the right/Still, life takes you for a ride/I just like to take a look for a while/It's such a pretty picture”)

7. “Nobody” by Mitski - Carter - (“And I don't want your pity/I just want somebody near me/Guess I'm a coward/I just want to feel alright/And I know no one will save me/.../Nobody, nobody, nobody/Nobody, nobody”)

8. “Hymn to the Pillory” by Nothing - Carter, Jan (a bit) - (“Watching pale moons disappear alone/.../I think we're far from home/And now you're free, let go/Jump into white unknowns/But I can't shake it, I can feel it in my bones/A pendulum hangs over me/Forever swinging violently, come down/Please come down on me”)

9. “Sleep Apnea” by Beach Fossils - Carter, Jan - (“I'm staring at the sky/But I can't tell which way my thoughts are traveling/I'm trying to listen to your words/But I can't feel my head and it's unraveling/.../Everybody's living or they're dead/And I'm still in my bed/And I don't have a clue/I won't lie/And tell you it's alright”)

10. “Patient is the Night” by The Blasting Company - Manuela - (“Clocked in 'til the work day is over/Time's a gentle stream, longer than it seems/Patient is the night/How I long to see her face now/.../I know she's never late, still anxiously I wait/Patient is the night”)

11. “stars burn out” by Lacunae (instrumental)

(among others!)

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GerryOliver Playlist bc I Care Them

1. “Two Slow Dancers” by Mitski (“We're two slow dancers, last ones out / And the ground has been slowly pulling us back down / You see it on both our skin / We get a few years and then it wants us back”)

2. “Savior Complex” by Phoebe Bridgers (“All the bad dreams that you hide / Show me yours, I'll show you mine”)

3. “Dream State..” by Lucy Dacus (“Without you, I am surely the last of our kind / Without you, I am surely the last of my kind / We had a lot to measure / We had more past than pleasure”)

4. “Marked for Death” by Emma Ruth Rundle (“You were right on time to break your head and make the death bed / You were right on time to crash those galaxies and flat-line / You were right on time to make the light inside of me a life”)

5. “I Will” by Mitski (“There's no need / To be brave / And all the quiet nights you bear / Seal them up with care / No one needs to know they're there / For I will hold them for you”)

6. “Curses” by The Crane Wives (“Won't you stay with me, my darling / When this house don't feel like home?(2x) / Oh ashes, ashes, dust to dust / The devil's after both of us / Lay my curses all to rest / Make a mercy out of me”)

- among others -

(Inspired primarily by Terminal Sight but also:

- i couldn’t get the boy to kill me (but i wore his jacket for the longest time)

- Write our Names in the Wet Concrete

- youth dipped in folly )

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My headcannon is that Michael Shelley spends what feels like FOREVER following that map inside the Distortion’s corridors, esp since time works differently there. So I made a playlist of songs that might fit his oscillating moods/thoughts as he wanders - as he slowly starts to become something not-quite-human.

Some Songs Included:

1. “lovely” by Billie Eilish ft. Khalid (“Oh I hope someday I’ll make it out of here/Even if it takes all night or a hundred years./Need a place to hide, but I can’t find one near/Wanna feel alive outside; I can’t fight my fear.”)

2. “Ghost” by Ingrid Michaelson (“I keep trying to walk/But my feet don’t find the solid ground./It’s like living in a bad dream./I keep trying to scream/But my tongue has finally lost its sound./I’ve got to say goodbye/To the pieces of me that have already died.”)

3. “Medusa” by Kailee Morgue (“She said ‘Mortal one, you’ve been chosen./You’re beautiful, but you’re broken./So hold onto this moment/And fight until you’re hopeless.’/There’s secrets and riddles that live in these walls./There’s ghosts of past heroes, and I hear them call my name.”)

4. “No Time to Die” by Billie Eilish (“Was I stupid to love you?/Was I reckless to help?/Was it obvious to everybody else/That I’d fallen for a lie?/You were never on my side.”)

5. “Waves” by Dean Lewis (“There is a swelling storm/And I’m caught up in the middle of it all./And it takes control/Of the person that I thought I was/The boy I used to know./There is a light in the dark/And I feel it’s warmth/In my hands, in my heart./Why can’t I hold on?”)

Sooo yeah.

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I didn’t pay much attention to Oliver on my first TMA listen but I’ve relistened to his statements a couple times and I’m fond of him now. Hence this:

Some Featured Songs:

1. For when he first starts to see the dream tendrils during the day - “This Side of Paradise” by Hayley Kiyoko (“False start, you sleepyhead. I’m caught up in the day with my night dreams, and my mistakes. Tell your vision, ‘no, you’re acting.’”)

2. For when he first embarks for Point Nemo and has a few good nights of sleep for once - “Alaska” by Maggie Rogers (“I thought it was a dream - so it seemed. And now, breathe deep; I’m inhaling. You and I, there’s air in between. Leave me be; I’m exhaling.”)

3. For when he is still very human, still hurting from his breakdown and his split with Graham - “Someone You Loved” by Lewis Capaldi (“I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain. Now the day bleeds into nightfall, and you’re not there to get me through it all.”)

4. For when he’s mid-mental breakdown and still trying to go through the motions of everyday life - “Normal” by AJR (“Is it normal to stand here and wish that I was back at home? Is it normal to tell her, ‘I can’t be normal anymore’? I don’t know, so maybe I should go back home.”)

5. For when he’s a fully realized Avatar of the End, has accepted his new reality, and is talking to Jon in the hospital - “Walk Through Walls” by Katie Herzig (“Before you walk through walls, you will leave all this behind. Before you walk through walls, you will look it in the eye. Before you walk through walls, you will learn to let it die, in the moment where the darkness meets the light.”)