Taking a mini break. Things are hard IRL right now, and after those couple of anon asks earlier, and the harassment in my inbox and disrespect on my posts that I have been getting from the VIP fandom in particular over the past few weeks, I've realised it's in my best interest to not spend as much time on here as I have been. People have told me in the past that I am a valued and respected member of the VIP community, particularly with my writing and my gifs/edits for the fandom, but I guess that information is outdated and no longer applicable, because frankly, I feel used, disliked, and pressured to the point of being borderline bullied by the community that I had always felt most at home with. People have been calling for me to quit writing altogether, or to write more of one thing or less of another. My quality of writing has been brought into question more than once, and regardless of what I did or didn't update, it was seemingly never the right fic. I've had rude comments left on some of my original posts, and I have had important captions removed entirely from others. I have worked hard on gifs for the fandom that I STUPIDLY did not watermark, because I was naive, and have had people repost them and claim them as their own, after I put so much effort into making them in the first place. I've had people compare me to others, putting me up on trial against my FRIENDS for things that we didn't even think were an issue, and I have been dragged through the mud despite trying my hardest to keep as many of my readers and fans as happy as I could manage. The disrespect shown to me in turn has honestly and legitimately made me wonder if this fandom is even worth my time any more. I don't even know what to say beyond that. My queue is on, and I'm not going to pretend that I will definitely NOT duck back on here at ALL, because I am weak, but if I'm slow replying to asks or tags, this is why. I gotta reflect on some stuff and figure out whether it's a hiatus from AFF or an outright quit, cause I'm really not feeling like my fellow VIPs have my back any more. Much love. Xo
