#total downer

[punkrockmixtapes]

Listen to: Everything is Gonna Be Fine by Total Downer

[pinnithin]

Sometimes I feel like I’m... seriously a screwed up person and a terrible friend.

I have this innate need for physical contact so I fool around with people even when I know they have feelings for me and I don’t.

Like I tell them up front I’m just wanting some human contact and only see them as a friend but I still hurt them anyway and I’m still using them anyway even if I’m honest. Honesty doesn’t always make you a good person. Honesty isn’t the same thing as integrity.

My god damn life is just... one big shitshow of me fucking up friendships and relationships because I’ve talked myself into thinking I’m in the right for being honest to the point where it hurts people I care about.

Which... I don’t really want to lie to them because it makes me feel horrible on the inside but I don’t know how to not hurt them.

But I can’t stop myself from using people because if I go too long without physical intimacy it’s just a super bad time for me and idk how to cope with that.

I don’t know how this dude just cut things off with me like that because even if I were in his shoes and wanted to go looking for a relationship I’d still keep me as a safety net in case it didn’t work out after a while. It boggles my mind that he’d turn away from a near guarantee of sex literally whenever.

I feel sick and sad and I think I’m a bad person. But I don’t even want to work on being a good person and that’s objectively worse.

[mojo-king-bee]

ugh now I remember why I stopped going to the Something Awful AT thread

[nintendette]

Like how dare people say money isn’t happiness It may not be but it can destroy stress and sadness in some ways

If I were well off I could afford the antidepressants that work best for me

I wouldn’t feel guilty about going to an expensive college far away from home I wouldn’t worry about the future debt I’m signing myself up for I wouldn’t be as stressed about losing a semester and a half of college because I was so depressed

I wouldn't be stressed about changing my major

I wouldn’t feel guilty for having gone to the hospital for my depression

I probably wouldn’t have been as depressed as I was

I could do community service without feeling bad about how I need money instead of helping others. you know what it is that my grandma got mad that i did 100+ hours last year when i was so happy

[lipstixtrix]

What if,one day ,I just decided to stop living,and I definitly don't mean killing myself, definitly not... But what if I just decided to stop?? to stay in bed, to not talk to anyone, to not do anything, to not go to school, to not be doing what I don't want to do where I don't want to do it... what if I would just stop? 

[askarkhamasylum]

I think the love of Mr. Freeze and Nora is so beautiful. I just wish people would understand this... Specially Batman. Sometimes he's just rude. He never listen to what the 'villains' have to say; their point of view of the story. Victor does everything for Nora, I really admire him. Of course sometimes he has to break some laws and stuff, but in the end he always has his heart in the right place.

Mr. Freeze: Thank you so much, kind soul. In this place it is so hard to find sympathy. I am surrounded by deranged maniacs and incompetent doctors. The only one who has shown me any kindness is Batman, but he insists on stopping my efforts to help my wife. The world has been so cruel to Nora and me, so I give cruelty back. I must show her all the love I can because I know nobody will show love to us.