8 MONTHS SINCE I STARTED DRAWING AND THIS IS MY FIRST EVER ARTBLOCK WHY AM I EXCITED LMAOOO this feels like a milestone honestly
never finishing but here u go anyway :)
WHY IS IT SO BLURRY
rambling below because i just can't shut up (lil warning: some suggestive screenshots + VERY gross stuff I’m so sorry)
hi um honestly I’m just doing this cuz I'm lonely and want to talk to someone but can only talk to myself, if u think this is a lot, wait until u see the ais bday post... i'm contemplating deleting all of it, i scrolled for 10 seconds and it kept going LMAO
i need to have a diary or smth but thats boring asf
i have so many ideas i want to draw to show u guys but i can't draw fast enough and every pose and composition is too advanced for me, so i kind of rush, and then i don't rlly enjoy drawing bcz of that, like i wanted to draw this bcz of the RSS post and i saw vere drowning, and leander being the lifeguard, saw it 2 days late, and now i just can't finish it
i need to just take my dear time bro... enjoy drawing... draw some ocs even if nobody sees my art of them
lemme count how many ocs i have wait
ok hi i'm back i THINK i have 13...
only four i've made art of and only 2 i care about now, and another 2 i'm making rn
also how do y'all care about your TS oc mannn
HOW DO SOME OF Y'ALL HAVE ONE FOR EACH BACKSTORY TOO WTFFFF
I admire u guys fr, i'm so freaking envious too tho!! GRRAAH
maybe i need to insert more of myself into him... but then no, i'll consequently hate him and avoid him even more than I already do
i hate making self inserts but i love self insert fanfics... huh
I also never play as a girl in games anymore, when i played wuwa and chose male Rover my life GENUINELY changed
likeeeeeee idkkk mannn am i just fucking weird... yeah i think so
actually no it's just like men who play as women in video games... okay nvm then I feel normal now lmaooo… I think it’s because I never see women playing as men that often
and don't even get me STARTED on baldur's gate 3, HOLY FUCK the mods are actually insane, they got me fucking shaking, frothing, and drooling at the mouth ughh
Don’t worry, you’re not hallucinating, that is indeed Caleb on the side lmao
when i played as a girl i didn't enjoy it to the fullest and ONLY had 55 hours for my 1st play through... yeah i'm ashamed, for context, the avg playtime for one play through is 120 hours...
I spent a lot of hours on character customisation the first time, so maybe 45 hours? Jeeeeezzzz I speed ran that thang
AND I played as Tav not Dark Urge :C i wish i could turn back time and say to myself: “PLAY AS DURGE FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!! AND PLAY AS A GUYYYY!!!!!! YOU'LL ENJOY IT SO MUCH AND ACTUALLY TAKE YOUR TIME!!!!!”
Tav was gen so boring :/ I know a lot of ppl don’t like Durge (bcz, well, it’s fucking disgusting at times)
i didn't get up to act 3 as Embrace Durge but... i was honestly having the time of my LIFE - i am so sorry - I WAS KILLING EVERYBODY, a full on murder hobo
i knew i was going to enjoy it sm when it said 'fantasize about ripping his hand off'
…i clicked that option... and guess what. it didn't stop at just fantasizing.
AND U CAN KEEP THE HAND IN UR BACKPACK OMGGGGGG LMAOO
AND OMG. THE... SQUIRREL... INCIDENT... OHHHMYYYGODDDDD.
if u love animals don't search it up oh my days LMAOOOO
My jaw was on the ground - just fucking NO HESITATION. THE SOUND EFFECT... YOU DON'T EVEN GET A CHOICE TO OPT OUT AS DURGE. LOOK AT HIS FACE WHEN HE GETS THE IDEA
ALSO DURGE'S SERVANT DROPPING THE FACT THAT DURGE HAD... A VERY BAD PHILIA... UMMMMM THAT WAS HORRIFYING
like buddy wdym "REintroducing" NOOOOO....!!! PLEASE NOOOO
oh my god poor Alfira too LMAOOOOO THAT SHIT WAS SO FUNNY
"i wanna join ur party y/n, u inspired me so much! here's a free lyre for performing my dead teacher's song with me!"
and then in the middle of the night, gets killed by said y/n LMAOAOAO her face was so creepyyy oohhhh her eyes were snatched and her... insides were everywhere
the funny part about it is that it was just SO fucking abrupt, like u go peacefully to sleep - fade to black screen - and then your character standing above a body
even ur character is shocked lmao, just lookin around like, "did i do that? i swear i was sleeping bro"
idk why i stopped playing BRUH, i forgot the story, i should replay it and romance Astarion for the third fucking time
okay hi a day later i'm playing it again as durge i'm so freaking excited AHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHGHGHGHHHHHHH
why is the video quality so bad smh anyway this was funny lol
I AM PREPARED TO TAKE 1,000 SCREENSHOTS LETS FUCKING GO
hair down ver.
i'm glad i chose hair up in the end, i kept switching and it was rlly annoying. he looks more sexy with forehead and also more evil
that's my... lil thought process lmao
i guess u guys now know i prefer sexy > cute, idk what ur gonna do with that information tho HAHA
HOLY FUCK THAT GLARE. I'M GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE LIKE A RABID DOG
hugging Shart <3 my love (i still can't take that nickname seriously, yes, i'm immature - no, i don't care)
always make sure to hug ur Shart :(
Astarionnnnnnn omggggg
"daww, Scratch... you're such a good boy... just don't mind the blood. I totally didn't just murder someone and enjoy it" basically Embrace Durge in a sentence














