Some thoughts about the dynamics of your relationship with toxic older boyfriend Joel. 🤤
• Toxic Joel who doesn't listen to you when you tell him not to cum inside you. He ignores your pleas and keeps hammering into you hard and rough. He pins your wrists to the bed to stop you from struggling. He can't resist burying his cock deep inside your cunt when his climax reaches its peak. He groans and shudders while he shoots his cum inside your pussy, not giving a shit that he's risking you getting pregnant. If it happens, it happens.
• Toxic Joel who secretly worries that you will leave him so he tries to make you as dependent on him as possible. He discourages you from pursuing a career - why should you bother when you can work as a receptionist at his construction company? He handles the financial aspects of every part of your life so you don't have to worry about bills, and gives you your own credit card for everyday use. Let me worry about all that grown up stuff, he tells you. You don't have a car because you don't need one, not when Joel drives you everywhere. If you need anything, it should be Joel that you turn to.
• Toxic Joel has a voracious sexual appetite when it comes to you. Your body is like a fucking drug to him. He craves you all the time. Sometimes he gets too caught up in chasing his own pleasure and goes really feral when he's fucking you - his pace turns punishing and the way his cock barrels in and out of you starts to hurt. Joel ignores you when you tell him to stop and try to push him away. Sometimes when he's fucking you doggystyle he hooks his fingers in the corners of your mouth and pulls taut, and you are so immobilised that you become like a fleshlight. He loves bunching your hair in his fist and pulling it tightly to make you cry. It never takes long for him to cum when he gets that rough, like inflicting pain on you heightens his pleasure. At the end of it all you're left a swollen, tired mess.
• Toxic Joel is so paranoid about you cheating on him that he has security cameras installed at all the points of entry to his house. Using a simple app on his phone he can see who is coming or going any time of the day or night. He checks it regularly when you're home alone and he's out of the house. One time your sister's husband came over to return a baking dish she had borrowed, and he went inside to use the bathroom. Joel watched the footage, outraged that you let a man inside your home, away from the view of the camera, leaving two whole minutes unaccounted for. Joel left work and drove straight home, where he spent the next hour interrogating you and berating you, accusing you of being unfaithful. He only stopped when you burst into tears and begged him to believe you. From then on, Joel made the rule that no man was allowed to enter inside the house without his permission.
• Toxic Joel refuses to wear condoms. I'm too old for that shit, he tells you, so it's your responsibility. You're on birth control pills but occasionally he fucks around with them (especially when he's pissed off at you) in the hopes that you'll get pregnant.
• Toxic Joel hates it when men look your way. When you're out in public he notices every side glance or blatant stare thrown your way and it pisses him off. He tightens his grip on your hand or slings his arm around your waist to keep you close to him, to show them you're his.
• Toxic Joel knows how to romance and spoil you like the queen you are. He takes you on shopping sprees and buys whatever your little heart desires - the only stipulation is that he must choose the perfume and lingerie that he wants you to wear. You have regular date nights where he wines and dines you at fancy restaurants then eats your pussy in the back seat of his truck.
• Toxic Joel insists on linking a tracking app on both your phones so he can know your location at all times. He regularly checks it throughout the day when he's at work, and obsessively whenever you go out for dinner with friends. It's not that he doesn't trust you - it's to keep you safe, to protect you - but when you linger somewhere for too long he gets paranoid that you're with another man, or doing something you shouldn't be. If you're late returning from an outing, he crosses examines you about what you've been doing. Sometimes he will sulk and give you the silent treatment for a day or two. You end up feeling guilty, although you did nothing wrong, and try to make it up to him by giving him a sloppy deep throating blow job, the kind he loves. He forgives you when he cums down your throat.
