Its funny how "I'm Only Thinking of Him" has become one of the sadder songs from Man of La Mancha to me.
The 'concern' from Donqui's family, which appears quite selfless on the surface, reveals underlying concerns of what people will think, what others may do, how it will reflect on them, it makes me think of my experiences with my own family.
I find myself relating my trans experience a lot with donqui these days lol, and it was this song in particular that just kinda drives it home for me.
The line that especially does it for me is "I've been told he's chasing dragons, and I fear it may be true / if my groom should hear about it, heaven knows what he will do./ Oh I really love my uncle, but for what he's done to me/ I would like to take and lock him up and throw away the key."
It just hits the nail on the head when it comes to my family and what I've dealt with for so long, lol. The constant self-assuring of themselves that they only do it out of their love for me, it's such a sad thing.
Granted my relationship with my family is a lot better than it used to be, but they're definitely still upset that I'm out here chasing dragons still~
