Honestly I think I might be conceptkin. But like its so far into my identify it also affects my gender.
Like from what I know there arent any specific terms for what I feel I kin the concept but heres my best describing it
Horror. But not in the casual horror way where you see like Chucky in movies or the conjuring but horror as in constant feelings of paranoia, the song исповедь, cry of fear scenery, seeing something on the internet you shouldnt have, grungey and grimey feelings that leave you disgusted, seeing those low quality videos of someone walking in the woods with a Russian caption to it, and more.
It's really oddly specific but its just like.. Thats me. Thats who I am. My identity is that. And it's so unfortunate that theres not a specific term/aesthetic I can use to label it since it's so difficult and frustrating to have to constantly describe in thorough detail.
(Also these bonus images of what I feel like it is)