Phantom has a hard time getting used to eating topside and ends up being very hungry at night, but Mountain is always there to fix them late night snack ✨
Thanks @forlorn-crows for putting together Mushy May!! (also here have a very handsome Mountain 🤲)
Rain sitting newly summoned Phantom in front of a mirror with his legs spread while Rainy teaches him how to touch himself. Sweet bug watching with wide eyes as his own fingers disappear into his pussy and he feels how hot and wet he is inside for the first time. His gasps and whines as Rain coaches him on how to find his g-spot. His eyes grow wider as heat spreads through his belly and he squirms, the feeling unfamiliar yet so good. Rainy putting his hand over Ant’s, making him keep his fingers inside and feel himself flutter as he cums for the first time. Getting kisses and praise from Rain as he basks in the afterglow. Asking shyly if they can do it again sometime. Are you seeing my vision.
Phantom gets his period for the first time and freaks out. He knew he was trans from the start, but isn't quite prepared for everything that brings. The days after his summoning were a blur but others have informed him that he'd made it quite obvious even when he couldn't yet speak, never answering to ghoulette.
Episode 19482938 of me having Feelings™ and making Phantom pay for it. I do be projecting on that ghoul way to much.
Anyways this one is called "Phantom is a dumbass that doesn't want to use proper binder etiquette and Dew had to scold him for it. There's trans angst in it."
~1.2k
“When's the last time you took your binder off?”
Phantom flinches at the question, tries not to look like he's about to be caught in a lie. He doesn't take his eyes off the tv screen, this is a very serious game of Mario Kart. Dew is unimpressed by his attempt at ignoring the question and walks up to him, hits the button on the controller he knows will pause the game.
“Look me in the eyes, Phantom.”
His tone is commanding, there's no escape possible. The quintessence ghoul sets the controller by his side on the couch and looks up at the fire ghoul.
“When’s the last time you took your binder off?”
He repeats, annoyance evident in his tone.
“Last night. I don't sleep in it, like you told me to.”
Phantom knows that's not entirely what he meant but he'll be damned (well… more than he already is) if he doesn't try to deflect.
“You know full well that's not what I meant. When's the last time you took a day off from it? And don't even think about lying, I'm the one who does your laundry.”
Phantom shifts in his seat, already done with the conversation. He's not fond of Dew babying him like this all the time.
“Why do you ask, if you already know?”
“Becauuuuse” the fire ghoul starts, crossing his arms over his chest “I want you to be the one to tell me what you're doing to your body. You might not like it but it's the only one you got.”
The younger ghoul slumps back against the couch and rolls his eyes. “I dunno, a week maybe?”
“Try two weeks.”
“Can't have been that long…”
“It has.” Dew's tone gets more firm as he steps fully in front of the other ghoul. Satanas, they can be stupid when they're so fresh. “You need to take days off from it, you can't just wear it for weeks like that.”
“Why not? I'm not sleeping in it, like you said. I'm not wearing it for longer than eight hours, like you said. I'm not doing physical labor in it, like you said. Feels like everything should be fine!”
“Are you trying to fuck up your ribs forever? Because it feels like you're trying to fuck up your ribs forever.”
“I'm trying not to want to jump off the abbey's roof. I thought you understood that well enough.”
Dew takes a deep breath and leans forward to rest his hands on Phantom's shoulder. His eyes focus on the quintessence ghoul's, who refuses to meet his gaze. He tries to soften his voice before he speaks again.
“I do understand, baby boy. But I can't let you be reckless with your own health like that. You gotta take it off now.”
Phantom lets out a sigh before bringing his eyes up to Dew. “I don't like the way it feels when I don't have it on. Especially now, it just… it's just been worse recently.”
“I know, baby. I know. Come, let me show you a thing or two that might help.”
He takes Phantom's hand in his own and gently coaxes him up, pulling him to the fire ghoul's room. He orders him to sit on the bed and take off his shirt and binder while Dew rummages through the drawers in his dresser for something. The quintessence ghoul is slow to obey but he eventually does, taking his t-shirt to hide himself once his top half is bare.
Dewdrop makes a triumphant noise when he finally finds what he's looking for and turns back to the younger ghoul sitting uncomfortably on the edge of his bed. He raises an eyebrow at him.
“You do know I've seen you naked before, right? Like… multiple times.”
“Like I said… it's been worse.”
Dew's eyes soften on him, he remembers all too well what it was like to get those periods where even acknowledging the two mounds (more like knobs, really, in his own case) of flesh on his chest was too much to bear. “It's okay. You know we're working hard to get a date scheduled. In the meantime, you have to make sure you take care of your stupid lungs.”
He walks back to the bed, piece of fabric in hand and presents it to Phantom. “It's a sports bra. It doesn't do the same job as a binder at all but it'll help on days where you can't wear it. Rain wears one almost all the time now, just 'cuz it's more comfortable.”
Phantom takes it from Dewdrop and takes a moment to examine the piece. It's black and stretchy, but a firm stretch. The straps are thinner than he's used to, he thinks it might become a sensory issue but he wills himself to pull it over his head.
Dew's right, it doesn't do the same job as a binder, but it does help make his chest appear smaller. And it's a lot more comfortable. He tries taking a deep breath and finds no resistance or discomfort at all. He thinks he might get used to it. Dewdrop throws a loose shirt his way.
“Try it with this.”
Phantom obeys and walks over to the mirror mounted on the wall. The swell of his breasts is still noticeable but it's barely there. Enough to last a couple days, he thinks. Enough to give himself a break.
“If you really need to” Dew steps closer to him and settles in his back, watching both their reflection “we can try tape again too. I know it didn't exactly go smoothly last time but it'd be better if you let me help, yeah?”
“Yeah.” Phantom almost chokes on the word.
Binder, sports bra, loose clothes, tape, so many things with so many rules just to make others see him the way he wants to be seen, just to make him feel better about his own body. His own body. He's seen the way his packmates drip with confidence, the love they have for the way they look. He knows some of them worked harder than others for it but they all have it. All he has is disgust and shame, no amount of hiding will change that. Why was he not summoned properly? Why is his body nothing but wrong?
He gets pulled back to reality by a warm hand turning him around and finding itself resting on his cheek. A thumb wipes away a tear he didn't realize had fallen from his eye.
“Hey, I know how it feels right now. More than most, trust me. I can see right through that look in your eyes, I used to wear the same. I still do sometimes. We do what we can with what we have but sometimes it feels like it's never good enough, like we will never be good enough for us. We are. Never let anyone tell you otherwise, even yourself. You deserve to love yourself, Ant.”
Phantom takes a deep shaky breath to steady himself and nods. “I know. Sometimes theory is just harder than practice.”
Dew smiles at him “We'll work on it then. Now… I believe you had a game of Mario Kart to finish?”
HELLO AGAIN I JUST YELLED AT YOU IN MY TAGS BUT I NEED YOU TO ELABORATE ON ANT WALKING AROUND WITH A DILDO IN THEM PUSSY????
hypppppp idk i just think they get off on being full sklhgdkjh more below the cut :)) cw for dildos and exhibitionism
there's a couple of aspects to it. obviously the physical sensation is great. walking around is good, feeling it slip in and out, grazing against all the right spots, but boy when they sit down O_O they're pierced by it and it takes everything in them not to give away the game and moan.
speaking of, it's the exhibitionist in them that also gets off massively on being filled in and around the den. the dirty look the others give them when they realise they've (consensually) been playing into their games. the ghouls actually have a rule now that if they catch ant while they're full, they get to fuck them :3 (it has backfired horribly, now ant just gets fucked on a daily basis and has mostly given up the ruse sjkdfhlkajdf)
Trans Phantom who's scared of needles. Rain who manages to calm him down enough to help him take his weekly t.
Dew who panics when he sees Phantom starting to freak him out and makes a hot chocolate.
Mountain who immediately makes sure the younger ghoul has a bottle of water because 'hot chocolate doesn't count as hydration Dew'
Dew who rolls his eyes with a 'what next? Energy drinks isn't hydration? Hm? You saying red bull isnt the same as a glass of water? You idiot'
Aether in the background just laughing trying to tell Mountain that he's been trying to tell Sodo that for years
Swiss who just laughs, playing it cool with a 'I don't go mother hen attitude' but as soon as no one is looking, he slips a few cookies towards Phantom with an innocent look
Phantom who tries his best not to panic but as soon as Rain leds him to the bathroom he's shaking.
Phantom who grips onto Rain's hand while he's trying to prep everything.
Rain who has to call Aether in to calm him down.
Aether who gently takes the younger's hand, rubbing soothing circles on his back.