#transabuse

[radical-sainthood]

Feeling. Especially violent. I need to bite and kill and hurt. I need teeth marks deep enough to remind you I was here. I need blood in my mouth. I need writhing to get away and being unable to actually move. A need a knife.

I don't want clean precise cuts, I don't want easy to fix. I want you carved beyond your wildest dreams and left permanently with the scars of my boredom.

[transid-songs]

song: This is love - Air Traffic Controller

ID: transabuse !!

explanation: honestly it just gives me insane amounts of transabused euphoria, and is a surprisingly effective way of dealing with dysphoria TwT the lyrics are like. idk very stereotypical abuse? but in a way that brings me euphoria instead of envy I'M NOT SURE WHY

but yah sang from the perspective of a domestic abuser!! yippee!

song + lyrics:

You're no good, you're no good

You could kill me and you should

I'm an idiot for thinking

This was anything but blood

On the wall, on the couch

On the corner of my mouth

You must like being the victim

You've done nothing to get out

Of this pattern of pain

Washed away by the rain

You'll forgive me if I promise

And do nothing but the same

This is life until death

Could be my last dying breath

But this is love, love, shut up, this is love

(Forget everything you used to know

I think you better tell your friends to go

Stick around cause I'm about to show you

The beginning is the end)

Yeah, I know wrong, I know right

But I just love to pick a fight

I can sleep with one eye open

If there's any sleep at night

I got my knife, got my gun

Let's see how fast you can run

You might think that you can hurt me

But the damage has been done

It's pathetic, I know

A jealous fool who won't let go

If I was sorry for my actions

Would I ever stoop so low

Got no reason to live

and I've got nothing left to give you

But my love, love, fuck it, this is love

(Forget everything you used to know

I think you better tell your friends to go

Stick around cause I'm about to show you

The beginning is the end)

Oh I was hit as a kid

I was good but then I quit

Everyone that tried to fix me

Knows that I can't change a bit

I've got no shame, got no pride

Only skeletons to hide

And if you try to talk to someone

Well then someone has to die

Once you chase me down the hole

Yeah once you think you're in control

You'll believe that we are partners

And you'll feel uncomfortable

Oh then the darkness rolls in

And you'll forget who I have been

But you'll love, love, love it, this is love

(Forget everything you used to know

I think you better tell your friends to go

Stick around cause I'm about to show you

The beginning is the end)

(The simple love that your grandparents had

This kind of love will only make you mad, honey

It hurts at first but it ain't that bad

You gotta wonder what it meant)

This is love

[kokoro-koded]

A pro-tip for those who are transabused and want traits to act out or adopt: Talk as though you assume whoever you're speaking to disagrees with you and you need to defend yourself preemptively.

Disclaimer: This often gets on beings' nerves, especially friends who want you to trust them. Some victims may feel completely safe dropping that attitude around loved ones, and others may not, it only depends on the individual.

[radical-sainthood]

I think I need to actually beat the shit out of someone. I'm gonna go scroll through photos of bruises.

[victorialms2019]

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[notagangstr]

Being misunderstood and depressed is the worst pain I've ever felt but I got proper help for it. I can't imagine what Leelah Felt. DO NOT FORGET THIS QUEEN.