#transferchmationtuesday

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Transformation Tuesday.

Many people often use this hashtag for physical transformations they have accomplished. I used it for that too. However, why can't it apply to other transformations that people go through? Not just physically, but mentally?

Over the past few years, I've been going through some of my own mental shifts. Almost similar to that of tectonic plates on The Earth. Sometimes letting more of myself flow out into the world. These shifts are causing earthquakes in my foundation. Shaking my core and disturbing reality. My mind's hallways have pictures strewn across the floor. The was debris of my former self But that allows me to build better buildings. 

I can use the tools and knowledge that I've attained through the years to help rebuild with the rubble. When I left my job a few months ago, I know that if this happened to me just 2-3 years ago, I might not have had the mental resiliency to just trudge along. I do owe a lot of that reflection to meditation. If I didn't have the knowledge that I attained, as well as the love and appreciation that I have for life that I've come to learn in the past couple years, I could have been misguided into a being a false prisoner to my own thoughts. 

Instead, I chose to view it as an opportunity. Every brick of knowledge that I've collected are going to build these foundations and bridges that connect of my skills. I can use that to help me create my future. But this involves everyone else too. We can all construct our futures. I'm all about that collabo.

I can see what needs to be done, and I know that I have amazing support groups in my life. For that I'm grateful. It can be mind-blowing when the gems in life are presented to you. Actually, I believe they are present all the time... as long as your opened to receiving the present.

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"I'm kind of a big deal."

I've always been a big guy. Or at least for as long as I can remember. There are glimpses of pictures from high school where I was thinner (not necessarily thin), but I don't even recall how much I even weighed back then. Rarely did I ever monitor my weight, so it'd be hard to compare any weight loss (or gain) to back then. Instead, I can take reference points from which I actually remember. 

I was talking to one of my friends about our recent weight gain, and she had pointed to very specific reasons. On the other hand, I had no clue to the root cause of my own weight gain. Of course, I was cognizant of the fact that I was just inhaling my food (eating for flavor vs eating for fuel). Of course, I also stopped monitoring what I was eating. Of course, I also stopped exercising regularly. During the height of my weight loss, I did the opposite. I consistently tracked my calories, and also worked out regularly. I need to get back to that.

Recently, there was a video about a guy who has gone through a lot of weight loss. He came forward about his insecurities (of which I share with him). I found this video inspirational. Personally, I don't necessarily want to be an example to others. A role model for others to aspire to. I'm not wanting to be an inspiration. I'm not doing this for anyone but myself and my health. But, if I can show others it's possible, it is all I can do. That person is going to want to take action for themselves (myself included). 

I need to be accountable and transparent about my goals and what I need to be doing. Hence this entry and further entries that I'll be posting every so often on Tuesdays to document my transformation. On these days, I'll sign off with my current weight, so we can monitor the progress. Speaking of, if you use myfitnesspal, you can friend me there, and we can hold each other accountable (but don't hold me to that pumpkin pie I ate today). 

Accountability begins with transparency & honesty. Accountability begins here. 

-FTR (281)