soo.. i talked to my mom today and she apologized to me????
apparently she was was watching the oprah channel and she likes to watch the different speakers that they present on that channel idk i dont watch oprah and there was a trans woman speaking and explaining the difficulties of transitioning. and what really caught my mom was her talking about the emotional difficulties of trying to be herself and no one (society included) supporting her and accepting her. and how its so hard to do things differently how a lot of people dont realize all the little ways theyre putting others down.
my mom doesnt know im gender fluid but she hates that i dont do a lot of feminine things (such as shaving and plucking my eyebrows or worrying about my weight or how im single etc. all things that she considers important to womanhood). and she ragged on me the entire holiday how shewas disgusted by how i “let myself go”. and she realized watching this woman that i was like her.
she got talking to my dad because while my mom and i always fight about personal stuff (like my body etc), my dad and i only argue about politics and major issues. and she asked him about it and how he managed to get a long with me and he, according to her, ragged on her about how much stress she puts on me and how she needs to accept me. and what if one day she pushes me too far and something happens? that it would be on her and how they needed to accept me as i am and as long as i have found happiness that they should be content bc what makes her happy isnt always what makes me happy and she asked me to please check her on it and let her know when shes doing things that put me down and that shes going to try to never do it again
and im????? like, i dont believe she’ll go through with it but this is still a huge deal??
