"TESTIMONIAL"
"Testimonial" Slave to my flesh I was Livin in No key to the kingdom cuz my heart was dim I had a sex drive so I hot wired sin Speeding in lust without a license Ain't no stopping him In the fast lane Livin life at top speed Hand brake just to drift on the gift of good weed I'm on the run having fun pumping all cylinders Shift to 2nd gear pop the clutch when u feelin her. Foot down on the gas This ain't stoppin time Got a full tank plus I'm paid I see all my haters frown cuz they want what's mine I'll be the barber to who ever want the fade. Cuz trouble always come when u paid right? "Cuz the more money we come across the problems we see..." Shorty like, "that's my song!" WRONG. I was enslaved! And the world was my shackle, Doubted God heard when I prayed since my life was such a hassle. in fact I wasn't even sure God existed to be honest Cuz no one ever told me I was listed in his promise I was always told that I would fail by my kin Not that son of man took three nails for my sins So why should I listen to a pastor who tells me to repent? No one knows my pain My struggles My strain! Don't know I cut my wrist all the way through the vain! Can't see when I go home all the scrutiny, Get a check in the mail look how they using me! They say how I'm so handsome and so unique. Don't know when lights are off what they do to me! I see the worried look in their eyes it's the guilt deep inside I've walked the route several times This wasn't new to me. But I needed change! I was getting tired of the usually! Tire of shrinks who said talking would help me cope with all the broken But talking don't really do much for a child outspoken. Yet I still hoped for a better day! One without worry or dismay. At 16 it nearly seemed like the guillotine was the only way From this world of lies, sex, drugs, murder, and rape. In the middle of the pit and it seemed there was no escape I was covered in transgressions fromy fitted cap to my bapes But still your light shined and swung open the drapes! You removed all the pain all the fear and heart aches! Gave me a new name A new life a new take All this just for me And in return all u want is thanks! I'm no longer scarred by the things of my past What used to seem hard is now an easy task I wasn't boxed in, or living behind a mask, When I didn't have nothing I knew who to ask. God you were there when my dad left me in the cold And you cared when I was otherwise told, I was useless. God u never looked at me and saw my transgressions, Instead you welcomed me with open arms and called me your prized possession! Jesus you're the real blessin'! Everything else is just an overflow of your love and grace, And I will wait an eternity just to spend eternity in your warm embrace, But I would have never known that doing 90 down the I-10, I was to busy worrying about my money, my loss, my wins, Didn't bother to see my actions set my GPS to my sins. I hit the brakes at the stop sign, realized this life i have is not mine, A sponge in the middle of my own reflection, so self absorbed, No direction til I chose this path narrow and straight, I guess there is a thin line between love and hate. I no longer had any scruples, I didn't want or need man's approvals, I now trust God more than the mammon, I no longer live by bread alone, there is no more famine. I don't need magazines to dress me Or a man to "yes" me Or keep praying for a woman to hold and caress me I found my answers in Jesus And my prayer is that you do the same, To take faith in God who leads us, All this I ask in Jesus name. Amen.