Apr 30, 2016
I understand that anti-depressants cause nightmares, and they mostly didn’t bother me. I was losing sleep but I could handle it. But now my recurring nightmares have a new theme. Instead of being trapped in my past relationship, I’m watching a man that treated me like his own child, a man that I viewed as a second father die all over again.
I’m watching him in his hospital bed, on the brink of death, only to wake up suddenly full of energy and his old happy fun-loving self, just to see him deteriorate in seconds, and then he’s gone. He’s just dead. And I can’t grasp that.
I could handle the nightmares before this, but I can’t watch him die again. I honestly just can’t.
