a big long faggy thing about how much i love fif basically sorry not sorry??
ok so yesterday i told my mum i was spending the day shopping then staying over at my friends house and instead got on a bus to another country oops???
well, i went to wales. it took 4 buses, over 3 and a half hours, but I got there eventually, and i saw fif again. literally the second time meeting her irl and im not even sorry i love that girl so much like wow
there is no awkwardness at all still even though i kind of expected there to be considering the last time we met we spent 3 hours sobbing on eachother:??? ((that was at atl aka bEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE OK WOW))
but nope still no awkwardness yay she met me at the bus station in wrexham and i couldn't really tell it was her at first bc i left my glasses in england oops but i thought it was her and got the biggest fucking smile on my face and just speed walked over to her and hugged her, it felt like being reunited with an old friend ((an old friend i have like major lady boners for???)) and she just welcomed me into the hug, then talked about where we were and told me things about the different parts of the town as we walked back to her dads car, i found out more about the old scene queen fif and i love her even more for laughing about it
we went back to her house and it was there that i discovered that fif is part goat, bc as soon as we stepped in the door she kind of laughed then made the most inhuman noise ever, and is now mr tumnus ((from narnia??))
we just spent hours in her room watching random things that she'd downloaded and attempting to watch full movies, but instead just spent the time chatting and laughing and joking and basically we r soulmates??
we have kind of the same sense of humor except fif is a lot funnier than me, she always has something interesting to say and i love it. if one of us says something she'll just spout a random fact about it that i think she might have learnt in school, and she'll get this kind of confused look on her face while she tries to remember it and its so adorable ok like jfc and i love hearing her talk like idk i just love her voice lots and i really like her accent, and how she actually sounds welsh when shes talking with her family
i really love the way she can't really be serious a lot of the time, and will pull stupid faces at me randomly, and i'll just pull them back. but she can be serious when she needs to be.
when we're lying together just not really talking but cuddling, and she's either holding my hand or playing with my hair, and she'll feel comfortable enough to tell me things, like her worries or just things that are on her mind.
she doesn't realize how beautiful she is, whether its as a girl with no make up, her big glasses on and she hasnt washed in days ((shes such a dirty turd jfc i love her)) or as a boy with the wig on and chest binded, or anywhere inbetween or a mix of the two, fif is stunning tbh
for like an hour whilst we were lying on her bed watching things and chatting every now and then our faces would get close together, and we'd look at eachother and i swear to jesus fucking christ she gave my butterflies every time that happened, and sometimes i thought she was going in for a kiss, and then she'd pull away last second, and sometimes i'd do the same. i knew i wanted to kiss her bc wow have you seen her
i dont really remember who did it in the end, although i have a feeling it was fif, bc i am pussy of the century and yeah basically.
we smooched, and it was really really really nice, shes a really good kisser and im pretty sure im awful but idk
obviously wasnt to horrendous bc fif seemed to like it and we smooched quite a bit and it was pretty perfect and shes perfect
then we cried a bit bc i put alexs therapy speeches on yes i am in fact an imbecile
and its now been about 4 or 5 hours since i had to say goodbye to her and get back on the bus and i really fucking miss her
ok wow i am #1 fag of the decade gooby
