#trust broken

[bisexualdawnsummers]

Thinking about the time my therapist asked me about things I do that help with my anxiety, and I mentioned sometimes listening to podcasts helps get me out of my head

So she recommended armchair expert to me.

There was really no going back from there. I knew I'd never be able to trust any advice from this person again.

[madamfart]

tru/st

[useableitems]

You broke your promise.

[changbeens]

so got7, their own bosses who dont have to do what other people tell them anymore, actively chose to put girls girls girls on the setlist for the homecoming shows. i see how this is going to be

[cooffeebeast]

I made an effort to understand and accept you, and you had the audacity to lie to my face...

[snowydawn17]

Remember the kaede Amami Ouma trio we thought we would get. Good times

[reality-fkn-sux]

[the-antitower]

OCC// Trust Issues

“People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them bare and their response is ‘you’re safe with me’- that’s intimacy.” — Taylor Jenkins Reid, The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo

I’m going to be very blunt. Many of you here don’t know me very well. Like at all… and that’s how it should be I guess…idk.

But there are a small few who have known me for years [looks over at her dusty WoW shortcut]. And I mean years. I have their addresses and christmas/birthday presents and such get exchanged and all that jazz. When I have problems they are who I go to. They are who I normally confide in.

Those few people will tell you I can be a very emotional person. Almost empathic? I get invested in my relationships and it has left me scarred, broken, and crying on more than one occasion in both real life and online. I’ve been left discarded in the trash for my friends to dig out and try and put me back together. OC’s of mine have gone through this as well.

I’ll get hurt and those few will still see me smiling and laughing like nothing ever happened but I am really crying my heart out inside. Some would said I am protecting myself… others would say I was ‘putting on a brave face.’… some that I’m shy…

Online relationships are particularly hard. Voice and inflection don’t always get across. You can’t see the smile that is hiding everything. Lost in translation I suppose. I think that is why I talk a lot online. To try and get that point across. 

tl;dr Reason for emotional post:  I trusted someone, Gael Ryder, as an officer (His offer toon was Dean Silvers) in my new guild (Starlit <<Star>>) on Matues. We had an disagreement in discord that lead to me blocking him. I told them they could stay in the FC if they wished. Before I could demote him to a normal member he basically decided to hold the 5 million gil I had saved for an FC house and is now holding it for ransom.

He told me that I would not see the money again until I message him on discord. I have stated that I do not wish to speak to someone who disrespects me. Now I can’t even log in without him trying to harass me. 

And yes I have reported him for as much. Though the GM who has contacted me said there would be little chance in gil recovery. 

The thing is this started over rp. He was a new partner. Someone I thought I could trust. He wanted to rp I told him I had a headache and it zaps my creativity.  He posted a short rp post over discord basically molesting my character. Here is a Google doc with all the information.