#trusting him

[maxescheibechlinichacheli]

[wiirocku]

1 Peter 1:9 (NLT) - The reward for trusting Him will be the salvation of your souls.

[womanintheword]

You probably know about my situation already because you follow me and have seen some of my posts but can you offer me any insight on how to grow closer to god and better myself and my situation in any way? The last few weeks have been so hard and it only is getting worse. I don't know how to quit questioning and I don't know how to just trust in him. I just wish things could get better but I don't know where to start. If anything, please pray for me and for my lost soul.

Hi friend,My pastor was talking about this some yesterday. We don’t always feel like doing something–we’re not always inspired, we don’t always feel close to God, etc. etc.–but actions are so closely linked to feelings, and actions are what typically bring the feelings into light, if that makes sense. So, like, I may not feel close to God one day, and I may not really want to read His Word, but once I do, I’m going to feel closer to Him. And sometimes it takes more than once. Sometimes it may take a month straight. But, eventually, it will happen. There’s a natural ebb and flow to everything in life. We’re not always going to feel close to Him (and that’s totally normal), but it’s how we deal with that feeling when we’re there that matters. We can’t run away. We’ve got to keep praying, keep reading His Word, keep asking Him to help us to trust and love Him with all our hearts and all our souls and all our minds. We’ve got to keep loving others. We’ve got to keep putting the work in. I questioned God and I didn’t trust Him for the longest time, and, to this day, trusting Him is one of the main things that I struggle with. But I keep praying, day after day, and I ask Him to change my heart and to help me to love Him and trust Him. I keep praying and I keep reading His Word and I keep going to church and I keep praising Him and I keep talking to others about Him. If you ask Him to help you? He’s going to change your heart. If you put in the work? If you just get started and keep going, no matter what? Your actions are going to influence your feelings. I pray this makes sense, friend. Please let me know if you need me to expand any further, and feel free to message me privately as well. I am sending prayers up for you. <3“Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.” - Colossians 3:2All my love,S. 

[christ-l0ver]

As I walked in the rain, I knew I just had to be honest with Him, I told God I felt weak and scared. It was then that He reminded me that He is my strength and is always there.

[dianareagon]

Today Bunny woke up super early and ate her Cookie Crisp she had picked out and giddily ate it as she talked about making new friends and her backpack.  I put her hair up in a ponytail “just like Mommy’s” and got a couple of pictures before dropping her off for her first day of school.  Not only her first day of school, but her first time being in the care of someone other than family.  I was expecting to cry, but there was something so much easier about it than when I had to drop her off for her first unsupervised visit with her dad.  This made me reflect on why.....   At school she is surrounded by men and women who are pouring God’s word and light into her.  It is a safe space for her to develop her thoughts and beliefs with safe people teaching her about the Creator and His character.   There’s also a release of tension.  It gives me a break.  I feel like a horrible mother and just as bad of an example of Christ in my day-to-day life while also battling the lies her dad/girlfriend is sending her way and trying to be the opposite example he/she is to her.  But there, at her new school, they will be great examples of the love of Christ and display the Fruits of the Spirit in a way I struggle to.  It doesn’t let me off the hook, but it relieves a bit of that anxiety I have every single time I’m not patient, peaceful, kind, grateful, loving, gentle, or in control of my emotions/reactions. She will actually have someone heavily involved with her day-to-day life that is pointing her towards God much better than I could ever do. I often struggle internally with not being like the teachers she has, the mentors and friends I have, and the people in the church as a whole.  Everyone seems to have it all together.  They don’t, and I know that, but it feels that way....or much more so than I do, at least.  And here I am on the sidelines being the most selfish woman and mother in the world with a seemingly untamable need to control while lashing out in anger/frustration to top it all off!  I will give myself a bit of wiggle room since it has gotten better, but I still surprise myself sometimes and especially so when I’m feeling anxious or stressed.  But at school, Bunny won’t deal with that.  She’ll have a great example of a Christ-follower from her teacher as well as many more in the form of the staff, the women who are picking her up from school, before school care teachers, and even with her friends.   People who God created for positions like this.....to fill in where I lack as part of the body.  It is so important to remind myself that I’m broken, but God uses broken people.  I have SO many flaws, but that leaves so much room for God to work on me.  I fail on a daily basis and am constantly asking God’s forgiveness, but it is also a daily reminder of how much I need Him.  And even though I can remind myself of these truths, it doesn’t take away the feelings of failure and frustration when I don’t see any growth in becoming more like Him and setting a horrible example of Christ’s love for my girls. But I’m truckin’ on and praying for these girls.  He gave them to me for a reason.  He allowed their dad to make life-altering decisions on their behalf.  He provided the funds and means for Bunny to attend this particular school.  He has a plan and I can trust that as well as be grateful for the people He has put and will put in her life.

[undescribableness]

i have no use for these anymore. 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻anything that doesn't help my akhirah isn't worth it.

[depthofmystery]

listen.

I feel like the Lord is trying to get my attention & He wrote this on my heart the other day when I was reading 1 Samuel: “speak, for your servant is listening.” I want to be attentive to what Jesus is calling me to do & who He says I am. I don’t want to miss what He has for me because I was consumed by worry, comparison or self doubt. He sees me, He knows me & He loves me. I have nothing to fear.