I Have Decided to Marry Myself
I have decided to marry myself.
I am no longer young, and I have come to realize that I truly like who I am.
The way I see the world, the emotions I feel when I encounter beauty and sorrow, my innocence, my beauty, my strength, and my charm—these are all uniquely mine. They exist only once in this world.
As my father once told me, there is only one me in the entire world.
That is why he always encouraged me to live with confidence and never forget my own worth.
As I have gone through life, I have often been hurt after giving my heart to people. Not everyone feels the same way I do. Human beings are, in many ways, like giant calculators. Even between parents and children, calculations exist. How, then, could they not exist between friends, lovers, or anyone else?
But I am too precious to spend my life constantly calculating.
My time is valuable.
I wish time would slow down. I wish I would not grow old so quickly.
I find myself precious, lovable, beautiful, and endearing. Who could ever understand me, accept me, cherish me, and love me as deeply as I do?
I do not wish to possess a life that feels lonely, painful, or dependent on being one of two, or one of three.
I love myself.
I think I am adorable.
I want to live by my own strength—slowly, perhaps, but gently, beautifully, and with grace.
I do not believe there are many people who could accept me as completely as I accept myself. I do not know where such a person might live, or if they even exist. And for such a tiny possibility, I do not wish to take on the burden of another person's life.
I dream of one true love, but that person may be living on the other side of the world.
And so, I choose not to gamble.
There are no miracles in life.
I have chosen to love myself.
I have chosen to marry myself.
I will love my parents, my dog, my cat, and all the things that love me in return.
And because life is short and comes only once, I will live it fully.
I was grateful for everything.
Everything was beautiful.
I will not compete.
I will not compare myself to others.
Rather than looking outward at the world, I will turn my attention inward, deeper and deeper into my own heart.
Because time is precious.
I have married myself.
