#tryingtogetbetter

[lgbtstoner]

get high w me?

[stonedrafts]

I can never remember anything

Anemoia: nostalgia for a time you’ve never known.

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Sometimes, I feel I am reaching

into the past. Blindly grasping

darkness. Empty handfuls hope

to touch times which never last.

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I shake as I seek the comfort

of my mother’s hand. Slice open my palm

on not fingers, but a sharp tongue.

Cowering like a scared dog, too scared

Not to lash out. To trust.

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When I bleed my mind is red and numb,

And I wish that my blood was gloss, and I could

Pour it over my memory like a photograph,

Or glass! Red glass like a church window.

Framing each memory, over my eyes the way

I used to hold quality street wrappers to them.

And I’d dye the world red. It was better then.

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Quality street wrappers. 3D glasses. Hope. Hope.

And cinemas. I remember I was happy. Running

Up and down over sofa cushion hurdles.

I remember I was happy. Is it real or red?

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I retreat back to reality. To escape the fear

Of seeing through the filter. The silent gasps

Of lonely tears. A half-drunk cup of tea.

The cold light from my laptop screen.

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I’m back and I can’t remember. I’ll write instead.

[thestorieswecherish]

‘I'm going away for a while but I'll be back don’t try and follow me. Cause I'll return as soon as possible. See, I'm trying to find my place but it might not be here where I feel safe. We all learn to make mistakes.’-Paramore-Misguided Ghosts #blog #blogger #london #london🇬🇧 #travel #travelphotography #travelgram #blogging #blogginglife #traveling #traveler #paramore #paramoremisguidedghosts #misguidedghosts #escape #escaping #paramorefan #findingmyself #finding #tryingtogetbetter #bookblog #bookblogger #bookblogging #bookbloggersofinstagram #bookbloggersofig https://www.instagram.com/p/CDqbA1igM9U/?igshid=b0ixvenbxd76

[maryheart22]

A messy otter

[maryheart22]

Messy space painting

[sei-to-shi]

it's ok

it's not very late. but everyone is in bed. trying to sleep. doing their best to distract from their worries about the inevitable. i guess i am too. everyone has issues. and i know sometimes i don't act like i see anyone else's issues. but i do. i recognize how hard it is to be a kid, a teen, an adult, an elder, but i do get caught up in my own shit sometimes. i can't place how i feel. i felt good today, but then i felt bad, and then i didn't know how i felt. hopefully it will all work out in the end.

[profhawk]

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[raphaelius2305]

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