#turnaboutdiana

[ourneverendingpossibilities]

Hello your usual Kuroko trash reappears! I’m hoping that you’re doing well. I can’t think of anything super specific right now, so you can ignore this if ya want, but you know I’m happy with anything Kuroko. I just started law school so if you wanna draw inspiration from that, go ahead! Love you!

Hi Di! Sorry this is super late.. I really hope you enjoy this! I apologize if this is short! ;;

He watches with light blue hues, calculating and calm. No words are spoken, for he can see the tired bags under your eyes. The way your teeth dig into your bottom lip, concentrating on the mountain of books beside you. He sees how you frantically move from one to another, trying to take in every detail, every word on the pages..

Black and white.. But all he sees is color.

Slowly, but calmly, he walks to you, placing a light hand on your back. He keeps a cool, collected look, but his lips twitch a little when you jump, eyes wide and staring at him like a deer in headlights. He never gets tired of catching you off guard, and as much as he doesn’t want to disturb you, rest is important.

“You need to come to bed, _____-san... Studying too much isn’t good for you.”

He watches as you open your mouth, ready to speak what’s on your mind.. Instead he’s greeted with a yawn, a slight whine and he smiles bigger. He hears the crack in your shoulders when you stretch, being bent in that position doesn’t look comfortable in the slightest.

“As much as I hate being interrupted...” you begin, staring at him with sleepy hues, “You’re right... I won’t remember anything the next morning..”

He bends down lightly, pressing a soft kiss to your eyebrow, feeling heat rise to your cheeks. He then takes your hand, helping you stand and begins to rub small circles. 

“It’s time for bed, ____-san..”

Kuroko stumbles when you slump against him, laughing lightly into his chest. With quick reflexes, he grabs you in his arms, carrying you to the bed as he draws lazy circles on your back. He doesn’t say another word, lost in the warmth of your body against his. 

By the time he reaches the bed, you’re passed out on his shoulder, softly snoring in his ear. With that, he smiles bigger, whispering softly in your ear a good night, before tucking you into bed, content and comfortable.

[sae-you-sae-me]

Seven, what are you looking for in a girlfriend? (*cough* I'm very interested *cough*)

Seven: Oh, good question~ My type is white hair, blue eyes, pink button nose, jelly bean paws--oh, I should stop. Jumin is glaring at me lololololol

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[darkanddirtyknb]

PERSONAL NOTICE

arumaonthemoon said: Kai’s in distress?? Then I’m sending you lots of love and positive vibes! 😘 I’ve kind of just been scrolling past everything on Tumblr lately, but I can’t scroll past you, Kai. Know that I’m cheering on you so you can kick life’s ass! 😠💪

turnaboutdiana said: *brings you more pillows and blankets and snacks* I hope your day turns around very soon - you deserve all the love and happiness this world has to give. We all believe in you and love you so much! You can get through it, I know you can.

Anonymous said: Love, I assume you understand my worry about you with the latest update of yours. I wish you would take proper care of yourself. I would give you a hand on that; unfortunately I cannot. So, I reckon you will be a good little one and take a rest. You need your spirit when I come and pick you up. - Imayoshi

Anonymous said: Kai! What’s wrong? Are you ok?

Anonymous said: I’m worried about you. I read your update. It’s not like you to post something like that. It must be bad. We need are shining light back!

Anonymous said: Feel better! I hope you’re okay.

I’m sorry for worrying all of you! Aruma, Diana, Laura, I love you all. Thank you for your kind messages. They mean so much to me. The same goes to you, anons. Thank you. I guess it’s only fair that I let you know what’s going on. You’re like family to me, so I hope you don’t mind me sharing. I’ll post everything under the cut for those who don’t want scroll past what I imagine is going to be a really long message.

Basically I’m going to be reiterating some things that a lot of you already know, but for those who haven’t read my previous messages or are new to the blog, I’ll be filling you in on some things about myself.

So obviously I am a writer with the aspiration to one day be a published author. I have been writing since the day I learned how to pick up a pencil and haven’t stopped since. I have been fighting to carry out both my short-term and long-term goals while battling illness and tragedy. In 2012 I lost two of my dogs to cancer, both of which were very dear to me. Then, the following year I lost my brother to suicide. After losing the will to write for some time, I slowly began regaining interest and started writing commissions for people who enjoy my work. However, I’ve been living with debilitating hemiplegic migraines since I was eleven years old and more often than not, they put me in the hospital. I have “silent brain damage” and white matter lesions on my brain due to their severity. Unfortunately, the only medication that works for me is no longer covered by my insurance and the affordable medications don’t work. My neurologist has tried issuing prior authorizations for insurance approval many times to no avail. I want more than anything to continue writing but between struggling with medical bills and life’s necessities, I can’t afford the new computer I need to work efficiently. I’ve applied for many jobs but I’m seen as a liability due to the severity of my migraines. (I have stroke-like symptoms and have been known to lose my sight and even my consciousness at the onset of my headaches.) My commissions are the only way I’ve kept my head above water and I’m terrified that I’m going to lose them too. My current computer is extremely old and showing signs of its age. This doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop what I’m doing. I’ll keep writing until my computer dies, but I am concerned.

I’m a really private person and it’s a really big hit to my pride to ask people for help, for anything. But I’m struggling and it’s bad – some people have even commented on how I don’t seem like myself lately. I have almost no savings left due to my medical needs. I have been to various physicians and specialists numerous times over the last three years. (As a lot of you know.) I’ve been told that I have everything from MS to Lupus to being told that “It must be something autoimmune,” with no concrete answer. Every day is a challenge for me because I don’t know how I’m going to feel, and what’s worse, is that I can’t get a resolution. I know that I’m by no means the only person out there who needs help and I’m by far from the one who needs it the most, but that doesn’t change the fact that I still need assistance. I’m certainly not looking for pity and I don’t want anyone to feel obligated to help me.

My current job is to write commissions for people. It’s not stable and a lot of times things fall through. I’m grateful for the work I do get but it’s not nearly enough to sustain me – life’s expensive, as I’m sure most of you know. I want to move but I don’t have the money to do it right now. Yet, I desperately need to go somewhere that’s more affordable. I will never make it here. I want to be successful on my own and the fact that it’s gotten to the point where I need to post something like this is humiliating to me.

I guess what I’m getting at is, if you can help me even a little it will be greatly appreciated – whatever you chip in will go towards a new computer so I can keep writing and the migraine medication I need to do pretty much anything. I will continue writing for as long as I can, which is my way of saying thank you for your generosity. I have no plans of quitting anytime soon. This blog has my heart and soul.

If you’ve read to the end of this, I thank you for your time. Whether you contribute or not, it means a lot to me. (PayPal: [email protected].) I wouldn’t even ask but I’m having a really hard time and it’s starting to take a real toll on me, both physically and emotionally. Maybe I’m just having a particularly off day but I felt compelled to tell you all what’s been going on. Thank you for your support. I love each and every one of you. <3  

[spacediva]

turnaboutdiana replied to your post “i’ve been panicking for two days straight, i’m supposed find out about...”

You go best friend.

thanks!

[ourneverendingpossibilities]

A little reminder

This is a small thing for @turnaboutdiana because she has a big day ahead of her tomorrow! I hope you enjoy this little drabble, Di! :D

“You should go to sleep, ____-san.”

A yawn leaves your lips, and you hastily cover it as you hover over the desk, doing some last minute cramming. You can feel Kuroko’s stare through the back of your head, but you want to make sure everything is in your mind.

You need to be prepared.

“Five more minutes, Kuroko-kun.. Then I’ll be...”

You jump when he grabs the book, closing it shut and turns your head, lightly stroking your cheek. His finger ghost over the bags under your eyes, and a soft frown curls on his lips.

“I won’t take any excuses, ____-san... Overstudying is just as bad as under-studying..” He whispers, leaning down to peck your forehead.

“I drew a bath for you.. If you don’t hurry, it’ll be cold and I’ll hear you complain until you force yourself out.. You have half an hour to relax in there.. Before I come in and drag you to bed..”

He pulls his hand back, taking a small step back to give you space.

“Is that clear..?”

You can’t help the blush on your cheeks, not used to Kuroko being so blunt. You know he does it out of worry, so you silently nod your head, gently pushing the chair back and head to the bath.

There’s already a pair of pajama’s there, along with a small note. You pick it up, finding your lips curl into a grin at the content.

“I believe in you _____-san. Good luck!”

Giggling quietly to yourself, you begin to undress, remembering Kuroko’s words and nearly jump into the bath.. The warmth immediately envelopes you, and the scent of vanilla fills your nostrils..

For the rest of the night, you forget all about the big exam, and only think about how kind and thoughtful your boyfriend is.

[ourneverendingpossibilities]

I don't know about you, my love, but I could definitely use some cuddles this week. Anything with Kuroko, please! ❤️

The two of you laid there, legs tangled in a heap under the blankets as you watched the sappy romance movie.. Truthfully you forgot what the movie was called, too enthralled with the feel of your boyfriend’s body behind you..

Kuroko wasn’t big, but he was warm...

You swore you felt a shift behind, but didn’t look back, especially when you felt Nigou beneath your hand, rubbing his head under your palm.. You giggled, gently caressing him before settling against Kuroko’s chest..

It was then you felt a soft pressure on your forehead, and you turned to look up at him, a light blush on your face.. D...Did he...

But then you felt his lips gently caress yours, soft and feather-like.. It made your heart race under the fabric of your shirt.. 

When he pulled back, he gave you another one of his rare, but serene, smiles, before turning his attention to the screen. And you were left wide-eyed, breathless and unable to meet his gaze. Instead, you buried your face in his chest, trying so hard not to squeal at his affection..

How Kuroko manages to make you act like a love-sick girl, you’ll never understand.. But you definitely love feeling his warmth engulf you like a flame.. And you swore to yourself.. you’d never let that go.. 

Just like he’s holding you so carefully, yet tenderly, as if scared you’ll disappear from his grasp.

[ourneverendingpossibilities]

Hello dear :) can I request that scenario we were discussing - kuroko and girl both have a crush on each other but aren't together or anything, she comes over to help him study, there's a storm and she gets soaked, exceedingly awkward fluff ensues? It's me, you know me. I love you ❤

Hi my dear! Of course I can write it ! I hope you enjoy this C:

Shivers wracked your form as you curled under the blanket wrapped around you. You held the cup of hot chocolate in your hands, trying hard not to pay attention to the heat on your cheeks at being alone with Kuroko..

You slept in, got caught in the rain, and also left your books at school the night before. Luckily, the teachers were at the school, otherwise you would’ve been out of luck.. However, because the rain didn’t let up, your books got drenched, thus leaving you to share Kuroko’s textbooks while yours air-dry. 

You tried hard not to focus on his scent, having borrowed his clothing while yours were in the dryer. You were worried him seeing you like that would’ve chased him off.. But he seemed to be understanding, so much he let you wear his clothes... 

A soft blush hit your cheeks as you tried to calm your nerves. You didn’t want to embarrass yourself further than what you have.

“Is everything okay ____-san? Are you understanding the question?”

You blink, looking up from your cup and into his eyes, nodding your head.

“A...Ah! Yes! E..Everything is making sense!” you let out a sigh, placing the cup down. “Thank you Kuroko-kun.. For taking time out to help me..”

He watches you for a few minutes, as if searching for something, before he gives you a small smile. He rests a hand on yours, taking the cup when you almost drop it and pulls your hands in his.

“Your hands are cold...”

Before you can open your mouth, he’s lightly blowing on it, as if trying to warm your skin. You swallow, trying to understand why your skin was heating up so fast.. And your heart was bursting through the seams..

“I... They’re not that bad...” you mumble, turning your head away when Kuroko looked at you.

This isn’t good for your heart.

Kuroko is silent, as if trying to respond to your lie.. Because he knows they’re bad.. He lightly rubs his hands against yours, before he tugs you into his lap, arms wrapped around your waist.

“K....K...Kuroko-kun...!!”

“I don’t want you getting sick...” he whispers, a hint of worry in his voice. 

You lick your lips, trying to breathe, because being this close to him, after having him hold your hands and borrow his clothes is overwhelming.. Not in a bad way either. 

“I... I’ll be fine, Kuroko-kun!” You say cheerily. “You may not know it, but I have a great immune system! I wouldn’t get sick from this!”

You see him about to open his mouth, but you shake your head, pressing a hesitant finger to his lips.

“Don’t worry about me, okay? We should continue studying, or I may end up failing..”

He doesn’t know if he’s frowning at your change of subject, but he doesn’t say anything else, turning his attention to the texbook. Despite you telling him everything was fine, you didn’t leave his lap, or let go of his hand. Truthfully, he wasn’t sure if you felt the same as he did, but having this closeness, no matter how awkward it was, is more than he could ask for..

Perhaps he’ll ask Kise-kun later for advice on how to ask you out..

[darkanddirtyknb]

ANSWERS|REPLIES

devilxxxangel said: You are a WONDERFUL human being and I love you and your work. I haven't followed you for very long but when I saw your work, I absolutely loved it (plus, it's knb~~~) Don't let life bring you down! We're all supporting You! ^___^ (no pressure of course, haha)

Thank you for your compliemnts and for following me! I'm happy to hear that you like my work so much. I'm certainly trying not to. Thank you. You and the rest of my followers are absolutely amazing. I love all of you.

turnaboutdiana said: You constantly impress me with how strong you are. You're a real role model to me, and others, I'm sure. When I actually start working again this summer, I'd love to commission you, but for now I'm still a starving college student myself. I'm sending love and hugs and strength your way. Please be safe and keep your chin up. You can do this.

Sometimes I don't feel very strong, but I try. I've dealt with a lot in the past so I have a pretty strong will. I would love to write for you! Thank you for everything. I obviously understand what it's like to struggle so I also wish you the best. If I could toss you some foodstuffs I would. <3

Anonymous said: Holy shit. I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. That last post was a bit heavy and I don't mean that in a bad way. Just that I wsih you could get a break. We love you Kai!

I know and I didn't really want to post it, but I like to keep everyone updated. Thank you. I love you too! <3

Anonymous said: I just wanted to drop in and say that I loved VP story you just posted! It kinda reminded me of that old GOM story you put out in the beginning. :D

Thanks! I'm glad you liked it! It's funny that you think that because I told my girlfriend the same thing. It's like a great progression of the library story. If that's the one you're talking about that is. ^.^

Anonymous said: Are you fat?

Huh. I don't even know how to take this. Is this a joke? Should I laugh? Should I be offended that you felt the need to ask? What would it mean to you if I was? Does my writing make you think that I'm fat? I do snack a lot when I write, but for the record, I'm not overweight. I'm actually quite active when the weather allows me to be and because of my migraines I don't get to eat all the fun stuff I wish I could. If not for my headaches...I might let myself get fat. In fact, I'd be ordering a pizza right now. I'm all for being healthy but I have nothing against a person's body weight and wouldn’t judge someone for being overweight. Like, why even ask that? I don't get it.