Last weekend I got some pretty not cool news, I had taken what I THOUGHt was my last blood test last friday afternoon and I had a small panic attack when I saw that my HCG levels went Up and not down. It was 18 the week before so surely by now it would have dropped down to 0. Nope! It went up to 25 🤦♀️
I had a small panic attack because for a split second I thought I had accidentally gotten pregnant (which is a big no no when recovering from a miscarriage) and now I have complicated my situation by not knowing if its a new pregnancy or something is actually terribly wrong with my body, or BOTH. I was able to talk myself down by acknowledging that the math wasn't mathing, it takes at least 10 days for implantation and an additional 7 days before to be ovulating and I officially miscarried about 3 weeks prior 😮💨 so I was able to calm down and reassured myself that maybe its not as bad as I was imagining.
Saturday, the next day, my doctor calls me. With my HCG going up, its a confirmed ectopic pregnancy. Ectopic pregnancy means that my egg was being naughty and implanted OUTside of my uterus and instead attached somewhere else. With how low my hcg levels were, the egg is too small to see so they cant search for it and basically scrap it off.
With my hcg going up, it means that this naughty egg refuses to dissolve and is instead growing. Depending where it attached, if it continues to grow it can burst and potentially kill me 😵🪦 my doctor's fear is that it is in one of my fallopian tubes, which is a big no no for two reasons. 1) I need those tubes for a successful pregnancy 2) I could bleed internally if these teeny tiny tubes were to burst.
Solution: administrator an injection called MethsomethingwithanX which is basically what is given to cancer patients. Radiation ☢️ a small dose but radiation nonetheless. Its job will stop cellular growth and choke out my stubborn egg thats no longer an egg and more like a icky growth. Once they give me the shot, I have to wait 3 months for the radiation to leave my body before starting to conceive. Otherwise I would be raising my very own teenage mutant ninja turtle except it won't be a turtle or a ninja. I asked for one more blood test just to see if my hcg goes down (hopefully to 0) and then depending on the results, ill take the injection.
Today is my blood test and this morning I woke up to cramps. Im secretly hoping its my period and someway somehow my body dissolved the growth and my body is back to being mine 🤞
