Yknow being a trans girl and after a year on estrogen I've started to both be euphoric but also genuinely scared for my safety, feeling like I'm one wrong word from being followed home or worse when I present more fem. I've been flirted on by men who were drunk, ones that are sober and just: casually decide to shoot their shot, ones who genuinely see me and my feminine-ness and my womanhood as something to claim and own as an object rather than the person behind it, as someone to love. Misogyny as well! Lots of it: both external and internal from men and women!
It's crazy like: I can be disrespected and my thoughts and opinions completely sidelined for those of my amab or masc presenting colleagues and co-workers when someone needs help with any technical or academic issue. Yet, also if I say too little I can be seen as pretentious or being a bitch for a "silent treatment" and all that. And like: sometimes I have to feel like shit for eating what I like, bejng shoved into diet culture, being told what I'm doing at the dinner table is "unlady-like" that gender is so fickle that the second I don't wear my napkin in my lap the world goes asunder and I grow a 20 foot long beard. That if I am expressive enough in unconventional ways or to be unique enough I get other women saying I'm an attention hog and.
It makes me think about the whole "what if I was born a girl thing" because while the support and love from sisterhood is amazing and my trans, cis and enby sisters, misters and the council have been uplifting for me. Having to grow up with the amount of slut shaming that I see the women in my family do to girls that wear shirts with the smallest amount of cropping and blame victims for "asking for it" or "pretending to make a million" would've broke me mentally.
Honestly the whole « your identity is different than mine so I take offense » bullshit hits different when you are a transmasc with a boomer mom. To her, my transition must mean I viscerally hate all women. Otherwise, why wouldn’t I want to be one ? And to carry her point across she disguises herself as a feminist, making herself a defender of the wronged women, but only when talking about trans related issues, outside of that she says shit like : « with that bikini she shouldn’t be surprised when she’ll get SA’d » or just in general blaming the victim.
Me carrying on with the personal choice of transitioning to be my authentic self is considered an insult to all women but her openly and harmfully insulting other women is actually a personal choice uwu.
Also, it’s not only that she is an hypocrite regarding her own stance, she also excuses my cis brother’s statements when he affirms all women are men’s slaves and should never leave the kitchen : « it’ll pass ! He’s not really thinking it. »
A cis man openly violent diatribe is considered less misogynistic than me wanting T.
sometimes an oc is a girl who lives with her traditionalist retro family in the '80s but they take the forties vintage aesthetic too far and end up pushing lots of mysoginistic views onto the girl leading her to internalise them and believe she isn't allowed to do math or have a car. and sometimes an oc is the mother of this girl who ends up getting lobotomised by her husband for happening to be a Woman with Emotions. and sometimes an oc is the father of this girl who is a very rich child of hell and can afford to psychologically torment his wife and child. and also the first girl IS good at math. just saying
OH NO. girl get out of there go live the math filled life of your dreams
My redesigns of the yansim 80's mode rivals part 9: komako funakoshi (TW: misogyny)
In my version: komako is the oldest daughter of many children, her family has a very misogynistic worldview so she was taught from a young age that she was meant to be a housewife or "yamato nadeshiko". Unfortunately she has been so caught up with trying to become the "perfect housewife" that she eventually lost her sense of self worth, though nobody knows what she's dealing with...all they see her as is a yamato nadeshiko
at least ur done talking science. women shouldn't know science.
Oh, your fragile masculinity and raging misogyny. My heart goes out. To whoever deals with you. Truly, because it seems nobody ever taught you right, you patriarchal chauvinist.
The men who are scared of women knowing science are the men who are scared of women smarter than them. Because, if a woman is smart then they might *gasp* think for themselves and not let the men in their life make their decisions for them. How absolutely ghastly!
You sound like a one of those right wingers that replace people's pride flags with a tr*mp flags. You sound like you'd say it's a woman's fault for getting assaulted. I hope you chew a Lego.
Hi, you said essay on the not-love Victor and Elizabeth have?? I am fully invested, tell me EVERYTHING.
Im glad you’re curious!!! content warning for misogyny and arranged marriage
Ok here we go.
So to preface I am not going to use Victor (or Elizabeth’s) queer coding as a justification because while it is heavy as an osmium brick, it can still technically be dismissed as reading through a lens that would discredit my perception of the relationship between Victor Frankenstein and Elizabeth Lavenza. I would also like to mention that this is based on my reading of specifically the 1831 version of Frankenstein; or, The Modern Prometheus which was written by Mary Shelley.
Cool so the book begins with Victor explaining his life story, from the beginning, to a stranger named Robert Walton. He starts by explaining how his parents met and got married (which is its own whole can of problematique worms) and then moving on to explain how Elizabeth was adopted. In this version of the story they are not biologically related but are raised together as siblings and call each other ‘cousin’. I think we can agree that they very much consider each other close family. I think it's also important to note that when Victor was first introduced to Elizabeth she was presented to him as a gift and object ‘future trophy wife’ by his mother. As a kid he didn't interpret this as romantic but literal and just kind of accepted it as fact.
Years later their mother, Caroline, falls ill. She calls Victor and Elizabeth to see her on her deathbed and tells them, in no uncertain terms, that it is her dying wish for them to get married and that it is Elizabeth's job to become a parental figure to the other young Frankenstein's, William and Earnest.
They're still young though and Victor is sent off to school at Ingolstadt while Elizabeth stays home. While Victor is away we learn that Elizabeth has Grown Up and learned how to put her own feelings away to Be Strong for her family. It is made pretty clear that she now sees bottling her own feelings and doing whatever is deemed necessary to help the family to be her Responsibility as a mother figure and as a daughter.
While that is happening, Victor is out at Ingolstadt building his creature. To briefly summarize, he makes his creature, is struck by what he has done once faced with a living breathing Dude making baby noises at him at like 1 am (estimate), flees leaving his creature to wander out of the building, comes back and falls into a very rough sickness from sleep deprivation and general neglect + trauma, and is brought back to health by his good bro Henry Clerval. Henry gives him a letter from his family, who he all together stopped writing Months Ago, telling him to come back home at once because his brother was murdered.
Elizabeth is Very upset seeing a kid she was a mother figure to was killed and her friend Justine Moritz is being wrongly convicted, and Victor, thinking that his creature did it (based on no evidence btw) is Consumed with guilt and offers No comfort or explanation. A bit later after that Victor's father approaches him and goes, ‘you know, everyone's really really sad that your little brother was murdered. You know what would cheer them up???? Marrying your sister.’ and then Victor just kinda goes ‘ …. You're right, I need space though. First, can I take a two year trip out of the country? I promise I'll do it right after.’ and his father says yeah that would be cool, and Henry decides to go with him.
Victor, the way I see it, has two pretty big motives for leaving in this situation.
His creature has approached him demanding a wife, so he wants to get away so he can isolate and do that. This is the bigger and more pressing motive as well as victor’s priority.
2.
He is literally being cornered and old that he could make everything better by marrying Elizabeth who, yes he is fond of as family, but who he has never once shown romantic interest in beyond ‘mom says that this is how it works and that I should think of you as an object so I guess that's fine with me’
This leaves us wondering how Elizabeth is feeling? We know that the last time tragedy hit, her response was to bottle up her feelings and do what she thought best for the family. You could argue that she did love Victor based on how she speaks to and of him but you have to understand that quite literally from day one she has been told over and over that her purpose is to love Victor and that it would make her parents happy if she loved Victor and that her mother, who she was close to, laid on her deathbed and told her that her dying wish was that she would marry her brother, Victor. From her perspective, logically the only next step would be to make everyone happy again by marrying her brother, right? It doesn't matter that he didn't write to her when he was away and was completely emotionally unavailable once he got back right? This Has to be the next step for her.
And so they do get married but no, I don't think there was any romantic intention. I think it was two people who felt obligated to their family and in Elizabeth's case, subconsciously sacrificial, and in Victors case, too preoccupied with his murder-child and horrendous mental health to think about what He wants personally.
Why the fuck do i keep getting edgy right wing garbage memes in my youtube recomended? I just want to watch kurtis conner and shit...
I'm so fucking tired of it, it's always shit about "HAHAHAHA AUTISTIC GIRLS ARE SO MUCH MORE INFERIOR TO AUTISTIC BOYS 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪" or just people whining about LGBTQ people existing....does youtube really think i'm a fucking rightoid???? Like for god's sake i even saw a video that just remade the entirety of jaiden animations' coming out video and turned it into her coming out as """superstraight""" (just as a sidenote: i feel so bad for the girl they ALWAYS FUCKING USE IN THOSE AUTISTIC GIRLS VS AUTISTIC BOYS MEMES!!! Like all she did was post a video of herself stimming and that's apparently deserving of harrassment? Like what the fuck?)
Every single time i watch a video that's even remotely left-leaning i see idiots in the comments whining about how "PEOPLE CAN'T TAKE A JOKE NOWADAYS 😭😭😭😭😭" or how "THE LEFT IS MAKING EVERYTHING WOKE WAAAAHHH I'M LITERALLY PISSING AND SHITTING RIGHT NOW 😭😭😭😭", everytime i watch a meme video that can be kind of used as a reaction image there's always some cuntface who says some shit like "TWITTER USERS WHEN SOMEONE HAS AN OPINION" and i definitely feel like it's taking a toll on my mental health...but of course, if i say anything about it i'll just get called a snowflake and have my feelings invalidated just like everyone else who says anything about it because god forbid i have fucking emotions. If i show any sign of being upset i'll just prove them right that "people are so oversensitive these days!!!!!!"
Of course, i've been hitting the "don't recommend channel" button on every single channel i see that makes shit like the stuff i just talked about but they just keep showing up and like.....i'm not even really mad anymore...i'm just tired of it....
