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simon riley would be so gentle handling your ed <3
tw. ed obvi, implied making yourself throw up, agegap (not said nor implied but it is there in my mind lol)
he doesn’t ask you if you’ve eaten yet, if you’ve prepped your meals blah blah blah, that’s waaaaay too obvious. (and none of that ‘will you eat for me please :(’ bullshit haha i’m having war flashbacks)
he handles everything quietly, in a way that is so subtle that you have to pause for a sec and think back on what he did. it came naturally for him as soon as he understood the way you functioned, even in your smallest habits.
any etiquette with calories never make it home, he just doesnt want you to check them. if he cant take the etiquettes off like let’s say on cardboard packagings, he would’nt cross and scribble over the numbers. he’d unpack the whole thing and put it in jars. again, subtle.
if he’s not home, he’d ask you to send a picture of what you’re eating, taking your mind off the actual gesture of eating, and the pressure of doing so.
just pretty pictures of your food for him to see.
most of the time, he asks you about what you want to eat, not if you’ve eaten yet, because ‘oh shit, yeah i should’ve eaten a long time ago, i messed up again, why is such simple task so difficult for me, that’s so weird-’ — that’s what would make you spiral once more.
sometimes you don’t even know what you want to eat, so he just takes matter in his own hands, cooking something simple (or just cutting up some fruits, that’s easier on the stomach and mind). not too many options or you’ll stress out about how many things there is to eat, how many things you have to eat. even if it’s presented as a choice, the pressure would still be here. in your head.
whenever you guys eat together, he puts on a show, anything, just something for you to focus on instead of staring at your plate, since he’s not really talkative. he may try to talk to you, ask you about your day, but you might use that as an escape to stop eating, unconsciously, that’s why putting on a tv show’s more efficient most of the time.
when you’re finished he makes sure you don’t stay alone, call it clingy but he also makes sure you don’t spend too much time in the bathroom. hugs and holds you close, small kiss on the forehead, not saying anything — none of that ‘i’m so proud of you for eating today!’ (not that he isn’t). he just doesnt voice it, normalizing the act of eating instead of making a big deal out of it.
a/n: ik its ooc and ghat simon’s a war criminal but i dont czre i write to make anything and everything possible and i write abt what i want. and what i want rn is a big scary man to take care of me and my ed
