ok since 2012 is over in less than 24 hours i thought i'd go ahead and make a cute end of the year post!!
none of this is in order so just disregard dates ((ill try to do everything as orderly as i can))
i almost killed myself on January 7th
sean started ignoring me and ignored me for 5 months bc i was annoying and then told me i was too good of a friend to lose even though he lost me ""lol""
i was in therapy for a month and a half and i got a lot better and i kept going because i found good reasons to live like salted caramel fraps/lattes at starbucks in the fall and warped tour and pat kirch
april 15th- i saw the maine for the 2nd time and cried in front of pat kirch and gave him the essay i wrote about whom i admired the most and sarah and i made the lone pat of texas you can find everything HERE
school was great i got all A's again i got commended on all of my STAAR ((texas state regulated test)) except geometry or english i cant remember which but ya!!
summer cross country practice was cool i really progressed and continued to make improvements in my 5k time which is great for a jv runner!! ((i started beating nickie which made me happy and yeah man))
i dyed the tips of my hair teal for warped tour and it was the coolest thing ever omg im so excited for 2013 summer bc i think im doing light purple all over with sarah hollllaaaaaa
july 3rd i went to warped tour with my friends and it was probably the greatest concert of my life i got to see so many bands and meet so many great people and i was just so happy to be there and listen to good music and everyone there was so different but we were all there for the music and people and it was just wow gettin emotional over warped tour all the pictures/actual stories are HERE
oops ok before warped i went on mission trip with my church to Tennessee and Kentucky and it was a really great time and i really enjoyed it we got muffins at the end it was nice
after warped i went to the dominican republic for vacation and it was gorgeous there ((not as great as cozumel but they gave me drinks and didnt ask for age)) and i got my period and used tampons for the first time go branid thought you all should know that yeah and it was miserable but it was a really fun time!!
i started school and cross country and it was terrible i hate waking up early but i love running do you see my problem and i couldnt drink smoothies after practice anymore bc SCHOOL and i started WHAP and all my new classes and ive come to absolutely love WHAP and almost all of my classes and my english teacher is the coolest teacher ever and she knows about everything in my life bc i trust her so
i saw matt and kim and oberhofer with sierra and leah and that was my birthday gift omg it was so cool yeah if you want to hear stories/see pictures you can see it HERE
i turned 16 man that was an accomplishment i have never felt as good as i did on that day knowing that i had made it 16 years and wow it was a really nice birthday wow
i found out my sister was dying and she has at the most 4 years to live so when im a sophomore in college if i go right after high school ((she has NMO and a brain tumor that cant be removed and shes going to become paralysed soon))
november 7th was my all time low concert and i finally got to meet them and i literally couldnt say anything and i just kept saying thank you and im like 87234% sure i said thank you about 10 times and i took a picture of jack that got a lot of notes bc its the cutest fucking picture ever and wow THEYRE REAL PEOPLE WHO KNEW RIGHT and yeah everything you want to know + pictures is HERE
november 11th i saw the maine/mayday parade and it was super rad omg and the maine was great but the crowd sucked bc they were all there for mayday and i just wanted everyone to sing along and dance and god it was a little disappointing but the end of the night was the best bc pat kirch and i told him about my sister and he gave me a huge hug and i had told him thanks for just making music and touring and living i guess and when he hugged me he whispered thanks for staying strong and i literally wow throws up if you want all the stories/pictures you can find it HERE
november 13th i had my cross country banquet and coach embarrassed me and that was super fun omg but it was a great time and i just wow im so glad i have my team wow emotional
not much happened between nov 13th-december 24th so we'll just say it was probably pretty cool and it was nice bc i didnt do much and thats okay!!
christmas was fuckin rad man i got so many cool things and wow i was so happy and eager to do stuff but i hate when it ends so i was like coming off the high of it and family came over and i was pretty much ignored by everyone except my mom and big john who is a family friend and he didnt have any family down here this year and his son was at his moms for the rest of the day and hes such a nice guy and aw john is so nice
these are the people that have changed my 2012 and am forever grateful for them!!!
i met deny in early january i think the 20th or 21st and we've been friends for almost a whole year like thats insane wow i love you angel :*
deny introduced me to lauren who introduced me to desi and we've all been such good friends and we've helped each other through some tough shit man and im so glad i have you guys wow
i met sara and my whole fucking life changed man i love her so much shes my angel im so glad shes here every day and wow welcome to emotional time with brandi and this is the first post i could find about us and it doesnt give a date and i think thats fuckin lame but this is how it all STARTED
i had some drama with friends but everything worked out in the end and it was great!!
sierra and leah and i became closer friends
karen, nickie, and i all became closer friends too!!
I MET KRYSTAL AND ASHBUTT ((ashley)) AND NAOMI AND SARAH AND NAYTIA AND MADDY AND MIA WOW THIS HAS BEEN A GOOD FUCKING YEAR MAN
that was my 2012 and yeah it was a really bumpy start and i thought it was going to basically be all shit bc of my suicide attempt but im so glad i was able to get help and turn it around and yeah wow this year was so good i finally got a year that wasnt primarly shitty