he's never been so happy to feel the sea sprayed onto his face. he's never felt so happy to know he'll leave the day with sand in his clothes, in his shoes, in his hair. victor is safe. the sky is cloudy, but the air is still cool and humid. while fenris would normally complain, he feels like there's nothing to complain about. victor is safe. they're huddled together, wrapped in vic's favorite blanket. his boyfriend's head is tucked against his shoulder and fenris's head rests atop his, white and black hair snuggled together. he'd almost lost him. he'd never felt so scared. victor is safe. his mind repeats, and he turns his head to kiss vic's forehead.
@umbrs : i want you safe. i want you close to me.
“ i'm right here. ” he murmurs against vic's skin, but soon pulls his head back to look at his face. to think he almost never saw those eyes again. “ i'm safe. ” he reaches up to cup his cheek, and a rather somber expression settles on his face. “ i'm safe. ” fenris repeats again, his voice begins to break. instead of dwelling on it, however, he leans forward and kisses vic — tenderly, softly. he's the love of his life — and to think that he almost lost him, that he almost lost half of his soul.
it's easier to kiss him and will his tears to stay in his eyes than to face that fact again. when he does, he's teleported back to that hospital room. pleading with some god that he doesn't believe exists that his partner could live, that he'd be okay. he's weak, but he's okay. he's safe. “ are you cold? i think i'm hogging too much of the blanket. you'd tell me if you were too cold, right? ”











