Duke Documents Episode #1
I’ve concluded that my least favorite question of all time is…*drumroll*….*pause for effect*…
Unfortunately for me, I probably get asked this every day since I graduated college last year in May. As a matter of fact, I get asked that question so much that I’ve officially rehearsed and memorized my answer. I finally managed to make it sound good enough for people to think that I didn’t waste four years of my life in school with wild weekends and last minute papers. What I really want to say when I hear that question is, “Honestly…I’m out here slaving every day to keep these lights on, and DJ Khaled wasn’t lying when he said it costs money to eat”. The ugly truth is, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing besides pretending in everyone’s face and secretly trying to find my place in this world.
There’s good news though. For the first time in my entire life, I surprisingly feel alive. Of course I aspire to eventually find a better job, relieve my high levels of stress and debt, and surround myself with REAL friends…but all of these emotions, good or bad…Make me feel like I’m alive.
I had a conversation with God yesterday and it felt real. The prayer eventually ended in an exchange. My partner and I asked for very specific things and we promised to do something in return when our requests were granted. If there was a 2016 version of Doubting Thomas, his name would be David Mwansa. I just always need proof. The ending of this story is still unwritten but I’ll let you know how it works out for me.
Something inspired me to document moments of my life in writing. The plan is to look back one day and have physical proof of how far God has led me.
I’m a work in progress. Stumbling my way to success. Praying my way to paradise. Finding my way to freedom.
I read a tweet the other day that I thought was dope, it said, “your elevation may require some isolation”. Don’t be afraid to find yourself. Don’t be afraid to be different. The testing of your faith develops patience. It’s about the journey, not the destination.