#undecisive

[glass-not-a-girl05]

it is days like these I wish my perfect career and college would just fall from the sky

[gaskarth-omg]

y’all i have a serious question for u. i’ve been filling out applications for 2 art colleges; one in nyc that i’ve gotten accepted to in the past but wasn’t able to attend at the time bc of money reasons, and the 2nd one is like 30 minutes from where i’m currently living in florida, so i would be able to live at home and commute to school, if i ended up going there.

my plan is to send in applications for these 2 schools and then ultimately end up going to one of them come fall 2020, but i’m really really unsure about all of this.  i wanna stay with my family since i feel more secure in doing so, especially since i’ve never lived away from home before, and even tho i don’t have any friends right now my family is kinda like a constant in my life...like, i know i’ll always have them around. 

the 2nd option would be moving to nyc which i’ve been to a handful of times (except this last year in florida and 5 months back in 2015, i’ve lived in connecticut my whole life). i miss that city dearly and feel like a part of me is missing in a way, not being able to go there easily anymore; but if i did that i’d mostly be on my own without any friends or the comfort of my family or pets always being there when i have nobody else. this is far from anything i’ve ever done in my life and from my comfort zone if i’m being completely honest. my twin sister and most of my extended family does still live in ct so if i wanted i could take the train 2 hours away and stay with her, but my immediete (like my mom and dad) would be missing most of the year since they’d be here in florida. 

the other big thing is the cost of schooling at the school in florida would most likely be cheaper since i’d be living at home, and price is a big factor for me...but on the other hand my heart is being drawn back to new york...but being on my own especially with my introverted anxious personality type scares the hell out of me. 

this is a really freaking long post but i just wanted some opinions on what y’all think i should do (if i was accepted into both schools and had to choose one or the other, or just what you think about this situation or what you would do if u were me) 

this has really been weighing on me lately and i just don’t know what to do and i’m so damn indecisive and unsure of my future and really need advice :(

[thxlv]

BIG MOOD ALWAYS

[moaktree]

“She was the tide, always drifting in and out of the lives of those who loved her. Eternally indecisive, unable to discern whether she desired the solidity of land, or the wild freedom of the ocean.“

Beau Taplin

[laulaert-lover]

I don't know whether to give up or give in

[shouri]

I’m really good at time management.

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[vantablack-thoughts]

Me: I don't want a relationship.

Me when I have a great conversation with someone single: Ohhh we'd be perfect for each other, we've got soo much in common!!

Me when someone single tells me about personal stuff: Wow, we can talk about everything, we'd be a perfect couple!!

Me when talking to someone intelligent and single: I totally wanna have and raise kids with them!! We should get married this year!

Me: I don't want a relationship though!

[quitethequirk]

It's been awhile since I've posted anything, but the inevitable moment of graduating highschool is coming. So I drew my thoughts on it. Hmmm..😂