@unexpel : “ what if you hurt because it feels good? like you have a tingling, like someone left a switch on in your body. and nothing can turn the switch off except hurting? what does that mean? “ / prompt, accepting
“--it means that something’s wrong with you.” the skin between brows scrunches, tongue drawing against their bottom lip. “like...very, very wrong.” and yet--tegan can’t cry about it, say that it’s fucked. they’re just as bad as what she’s talking about. let’s be clear here: tegan doesn’t hurt because it’s fun, they hurt because it’s needed. hunger curls at the bottom of their stomach always, digs its claws around their heart. they understand about turning off the switch--but their switch always turns back on somehow, like phantom fingers keep flicking it.
“but if...if they deserve it. it’s okay. that’s what i think. there’s always someone out there who won’t be missed. those are who you should go after.” a blink, slow, like they’re booting back up (almost like a robot). “but that’s just my two cents. disregard it, will you.”










