#unhopeful

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unhopeful jhope

[spaacemusings]

         ❛   It seems that ANYBODY close to you has a pretty low SURVIVAL rate. ❜

[theneverside]

The way my country can make an easy and intelligent choice but refused to do so.

My feelings are hurt, my hope vanished into thin air. If by some miracle we can make a complete 180°, I wish it to be right now.

The light is now flickering, maybe it'll die out, too. As the blood of the past and future pours, I will forever remind you that it is all your doing.

[unhopeful-and-discontent-blog]

April 23, 2016

It’s been over a month. This reflects my personal life. 

Yes. YES. This is what I want. All this constant contention in the house. All this yelling and fighting. Please, I want more. 

I just want to get out of here, but I keep putting myself in a position where it’s almost physically impossible. 

I just want it to stop. Just make it stop.

Sometimes I feel like crying, but I can’t. Even if I wanted. I have no control over my emotions. Am I bipolar? Do I have ADD?

I just want it to stop. Just make it stop.

My relationship is going nowhere. She never does anything I want to do. I never want to do anything she wants to do. I always make her uncomfortable. She doesn’t like kissing. We only have a few things in common. But, I can’t let go because if I do, I’ll end up like what happened with my last relationship. 

I just want it to stop. Just make it to stop.

Just make it stop..

[unhopeful-and-discontent-blog]

March 8, 2016

I guess I’ll use this unused blog URL as my anonymous rant/blog page.

This morning was good because I slept in until 10:30, but the afternoon went to shit so fast, if it was actual shit I wouldn’t have made it to the bathroom, I would’ve shat my pants before I could think about getting up to go. I don’t even know what it was that started it. I got so pissed at my parents and my sisters. Every little thing that they did, just threw me off. It all built up to the point where I didn’t want to talk to anyone or do anything. It’s not uncommon, however. A lot of my days end up like this. Sometimes it starts bad, but ends up being okay in the end.. OR just really shitty from the start, and just snowballing into “Worst Day Ever”-material sorta days.

Most days I feel like a disgrace of a human being. I always act unusual, say stupid things, and always become the awkward person in every group conversation. I never act natural/normal. I forget to breathe sometimes. WHO DOES THAT BUT ME? WHO? NOBODY, THAT’S WHO. I FORGET TO BREATHE. 

Goodnight twisted up world. Maybe I’ll remember to do this tomorrow.

Probably not

[kraxxin]

dreams

Jes, it`s right....I had dreams. But this was the time before you. When you came they sayed goodbye and were going. 

[caglajik-blog]

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