Everyday without you breaks my heart
Your absence left a deep wound
A wound I thought would never heal
A thought that it would last for a long time
I was jailed into our memories
Memories that are bittersweet
Memories I want to treasure for a lifetime
Memories now I am letting go
I didn't notice how everything moves
Maybe this time, I'll treasure what I have
Not treasure those memories impossible to happen again
Hope everything will be fine
I know it's what you want me to do
The next time you asked, I can't remember a thing no more.
Written last July 20, 2013
Ang dami nang nangyari sa loob ng tatlong taon. MARAMI NA. Siguro, eto na talaga ang tamang panahon para mag move on. Nasa college na ako. Bago na ang mundo ko. Yun din ang paraan na ginawa niya noon para mag ove on. Oras na para umalis sa comfort zone ko. Sa lugar kung saan umaasa akong babalikan niya. Kailangan kong pahalagahan ang kung anong meron ngayon. At manatiling nakaraan ang nakaraan.
Kapwa, siguro eto din naman ang gusto mo para sa'kin. Eto na talaga. Gaya ng mga goodbye mo noon, ako naman. Ako naman ang lilimot. Lahat ng mahahalagang bagay at masasayang nangyari. Siguro pati yung pagtingin mo sa'kin such as dapat pinahahalagahan ako ay kakalimutan ko na rin. Parang ikaw, magsisimula ako sa umpisa. Pipilitin kong burahin sa isip ko ang mga katanungan na gusto kong bigyan mo ng sagot. Siguro para sa atin talaga ang "Sometimes, things are better left unsaid." Ipagdasal mo ang HAPPINESS ko kapwa. Hangang sa muli :)
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Hi. 2 days na lang at birthday mo na :) Sayang, hindi mo alam na yung greeting ko sa’yo last year ay yung huling greeting ko na sa’yo :) I’ve just decided never to message you again. Everyone have moved on. So do you. And so do I :) I always look pathetic every time I PM you on Facebook. Feels like you can run 100 km per hour just to get rid off me. Haha. Sorry for creeping you out everytime.
Years have passed, season have changed. Matagal ko nang ni-let go lahat ng happy memories natin at lahat ng alala na dati ayaw ko pang pakawalan at pilit pinanghahawakan. It's just that, ngayon ko lang naisipan gawin 'to haha. I'm over those memories. And I accepted the fact na hindi na tayo magiging mag-bestfriends at mag kasing close gaya ng dati.
My 3-year battle was long gone over. We may not be as bestest friends like before, pero sana aware ka pa ‘rin na nag-exist si Lenlen once in your kahit sa alaala mo man lang. Saying goodbye to you this time will no longer be painful. I am happy now. And that’s what you want for me, right? Eto na kapwa ang matagal kong hinihintay. Ang happiness ko :) Sana makilala mo siya :) Haaaaay. Kung makilala mo man siya, I know you will like him for me :) And I know, we will also have happy memories. Mas madami at mas unforgettable at mattreasure ko habangbuhay :)
This will be my last blog about you. So I guess let’s see each other in our past? :) Goodbye, kapwa. Our memories will now be turned to ash and will be scattered in the air together with the memories that are not meant to last.
