I talked to my mom about my summer plans and that I had to prioritize what I wanted to use my money on and I was not asking for help, I was just talking about my life yknow and she gave me to money to a festival I already bought a ticket for(that I could easily resell) which at first seems .. nice of her
but she has a long history of giving me money with strings attracted. So she would get mad at me if I didn’t do what she expected of me and then scold me for having “exploit her and her money to my advantage”
so idk I’m thinking about giving them back. I know it’s her responsibility to asses whether or not she can afford to give me that money but I’m the one she will scold and traumatize again if she’s disappointed in me
and see, this is how I learned what is anxiety and what is fear. I have experience with my mom acting like this, so this is not anxiety, it’s real life ..
