#untracked simi

[andthebubbles]

i see the bachelor trash show is now the bachelorS... seb, kimi and jenson in a bachelors AU when (slow burn, seb/kimi, seb figures out he’s bi, kimi already knows he’s bi, jenson......................... hmm idk lol; alternatively, seb/kimi/jenson, rejecting all the girls~)

[andthebubbles]

iiiiiiiiiiii have just finished a short simi fic, let’s see if it passes the zillion quality control tests I put on myself/my own fic lmao...

[andthebubbles]

2642 words (currently) of office worker kimi and seb -fic currently being whacked into shape... featuring plenty of low self-esteem on both sides ksjfngkjfngkfjgnkf

[andthebubbles]

legit not sure if i should just play tanks for the rest of the night orrrr continue editing superpowers fic... 

i’m changing a few things... and i’ll start updating chapters on ao3 at some point so that people stop reading the current version. yeah i didn’t think some things through very well but then i HAVE been updating as i write/when i’m not even near the end of the fic, so of course i’m now having to edit to shove in more ‘clues’ because i wasn’t really thinking about the ptsd aspect of the fic for some reason when i started writing it lol (???????)

idk. i guess i’m feeling a bit lonely.

i also have a simi fic that might be posted soon... and i have another complete one but i haven’t read it for like two weeks so maybe i hate it now

um hm. it’s my cat’s birthday today! (aug 15.) she’s 1 year old now :3

yeah idk. this is just a ramble post. every first game after a long time of not playing wot is just kfjgnfjng because there’s always something that doesn’t feel right; this time i was just zooming out too much. also, life’s hard when your skorp has a shitty crew and gets spotted whilst going into a bush... meanwhile the other skorp on your team is happily sitting in the same bush and not even getting spotted going into it etc

um, back to superpowers fic (who said this post had to be structured??) i took out lewis, put mark in (i think he’s a better fit, amongst other reasons), i seem to be rewriting ch 6 in light of the ptsd stuff seb obviously has but... grr it’s like... when i started out writing this fic i just didn’t want to do the ptsd angle too hard, but now i’m starting to realise... yeah there needs to be more. so that’s mainly what the edits are about. also for my crappy writing style... like i said in another post at some point, i do feel like i forgot how to write, and only remembered after i took a break from the fic and started writing oodles of fluff

so yeah other than superpowers fic these are the fics i have kicking around:

a seb retirement fic (could be posted tonight)

office workers kimi and seb (finished, but haven’t read it in ages so i might hate it now)

robot seb fic (still unfinished but not forgotten :P)

all simi ofc

(sometimes i wanna write smut for them... maybe because i haven’t written smut for them in aaaaaaaaaaaaages)

[andthebubbles]

okay i have way too many THOUGHTS in my head so i’m gonna try get some out so everyone can settle down and stop rattling around up there!!

- first of all SEB. when i take a moment to actually think for myself, it’s not sad at all, esp after seeing the video interviews from today. the seb tracked tag is filled with lots of people being sad though, which also makes sense, but i guess i am absorbing some of those emotions until i remember to take a step back

- i’m still PROCESSING. i also have some unrelated thoughts which are just. clashing. everywhere

- i’m looking for an angle on this whole retirement thing because duh i wanna write a fic. (kind of like, outletting.) and it should obviously be simi skjfngkg but yeah, since idek yet what i really feel about it, i’m sorta just waitingggg until it becomes clear

on non-seb!retirement-related matters:

- the past couple of days i was thinking of a crackfic where seb and fernando are teammates and at first their team is a bit shit/in the midfield, but with their combined detail-oriented-and-good-feedback!powers, they improve the car until it’s a frontrunner. and then i realised that if seb and fernando were ever teammates it’d be the closest we’d get to martian.2 imo. i mean am i right or AM I RIGHT (i can just SEE some on-track clash and bastard seb rips off his helmet and makes the twirly crazy sign and fernando stalks back to the pits and starts badmouthing seb in the media)

on non-f1-related matters:

- i don’t think i’ll be getting any writing done tonight OR any work, which is suchhh a problem because i’m supposeddddddddddd to finish something by the end of this month and it is Not Being Worked On Atm

- also my supervisor/boss wants me to apply for the part-time version of my job, and applications close on aug 2, andddd... like, yeah, i’m gonna apply, but i don’t even like this job anymore, but i also want money (so i can upgrade my car!). if it weren’t for covid though, i’d have tried to get a job driving buses so that i can get experience with the HR licence and then make the shift to driving trucks. however, yeah... i guess i’ll try get the part-time job which won’t involve seeing strangers as much as you would do when driving a bus, and it ends at the end of 2023 anyway, so maybe after that i’ll go for the buses... i dunno...

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(tbc maybeee, i’ve missed loadsss of whatever else i’ve been thinking about tonight)

[andthebubbles]

aaaah oh no I think I have a small simi fic idea which is wonderful but it's the wrong time to have itttt

[andthebubbles]

has anyone written a simi fic where kimi reacts to all of seb’s rainbowness of recent years?

[andthebubbles]

turns out that it takes all night to edit like 11k-ish words... lol...

anyway, now i can’t decide if i should just replace the contents of the first 4 chapters of superpowers fic (i would suggest not reading that version if you’re going to), orrrr private it and just post again as a brand new fic? the first half of chapter 3 is pretty much completely different, and i took out something from chapter 4, and throughout it i seeded in a new thing about kimi, so in some ways it’s quite different but also the same...

idk HALP