okay i have way too many THOUGHTS in my head so i’m gonna try get some out so everyone can settle down and stop rattling around up there!!
- first of all SEB. when i take a moment to actually think for myself, it’s not sad at all, esp after seeing the video interviews from today. the seb tracked tag is filled with lots of people being sad though, which also makes sense, but i guess i am absorbing some of those emotions until i remember to take a step back
- i’m still PROCESSING. i also have some unrelated thoughts which are just. clashing. everywhere
- i’m looking for an angle on this whole retirement thing because duh i wanna write a fic. (kind of like, outletting.) and it should obviously be simi skjfngkg but yeah, since idek yet what i really feel about it, i’m sorta just waitingggg until it becomes clear
on non-seb!retirement-related matters:
- the past couple of days i was thinking of a crackfic where seb and fernando are teammates and at first their team is a bit shit/in the midfield, but with their combined detail-oriented-and-good-feedback!powers, they improve the car until it’s a frontrunner. and then i realised that if seb and fernando were ever teammates it’d be the closest we’d get to martian.2 imo. i mean am i right or AM I RIGHT (i can just SEE some on-track clash and bastard seb rips off his helmet and makes the twirly crazy sign and fernando stalks back to the pits and starts badmouthing seb in the media)
on non-f1-related matters:
- i don’t think i’ll be getting any writing done tonight OR any work, which is suchhh a problem because i’m supposeddddddddddd to finish something by the end of this month and it is Not Being Worked On Atm
- also my supervisor/boss wants me to apply for the part-time version of my job, and applications close on aug 2, andddd... like, yeah, i’m gonna apply, but i don’t even like this job anymore, but i also want money (so i can upgrade my car!). if it weren’t for covid though, i’d have tried to get a job driving buses so that i can get experience with the HR licence and then make the shift to driving trucks. however, yeah... i guess i’ll try get the part-time job which won’t involve seeing strangers as much as you would do when driving a bus, and it ends at the end of 2023 anyway, so maybe after that i’ll go for the buses... i dunno...
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(tbc maybeee, i’ve missed loadsss of whatever else i’ve been thinking about tonight)