The worst and best day of my life
Soooo, I just had possibly the worst and best day of my life.
The Best day. Earlier today, I got confirmation that I had just passed the entrance exam for a university I really wanted to get into. This is a school that everyone prepares for. A school everyone vies to get into because of its standard and prestige. Once the results were released, people would either cry because of happiness or anguish. So when I was told I got in, I burst into tears in front of my classmates. And I was treated to congratulations, so proud of yous, i knew its, etc. My heart was bursting.
The Worst day. Throughout the day, I was filled with inexplicable worry and a tinge of emptiness. My friends noticed but I couldn’t explain it. I had a feeling I knew why but didn’t want to admit it. As the day went and the euphoric happiness i felt earlier gradually went away, the inexplicable feeling grew stronger and stronger. Finally, I got my answer. The Boy I was “with” or had a mutual understanding with told me he wasn’t ready. For me. For us. But asked if I’d be able to wait for him. It wasn’t as painful as I thought it would be because I was already expecting it.
Expecting the worst always works. My new motto in life hahaha. I expected the worst about the test results and it was a pleaseant surprise. I expected the worst out of the relationship that barely even started and it happened and it’s not as painful as it ought to be. But, I’m still hoping.
So, I just needed to vent somewhere where no one knows about me. This day was a ride.