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U38 – Corsairs of Umbar

Official Release Notes You’re 140 – where do you start? Whether you have or haven’t started the new Main Quest arc, dubbed “A Song of Waves

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Update #38

Goodmorning! I wanted to let you know that I am posting my book reviews, sidebar, and updates to my Blogger page as well as my Tumblr page. Please feel free to check it out! http://fiction-book-reviewer.blogspot.com/

Until Next Time...

[luciferious-archive]

I'm making myself do at least two loads of laundry today, which means I should probably also spend twenty minutes cleaning my closet. But we'll see how that goes. I need to spend some time painting and I just don't have a lot of motivation as it is. I really wanted to just roll over and go back to sleep even when I saw what time it was.

I had a hard time getting to sleep last night as it was. My mind just wouldn't stop racing. That's been happening a lot lately. Sometimes I wonder if the downside of fighting my depression as hard as I am means that my anxiety takes over—instead of just not giving a fuck or being so exhausted that I fall asleep the second my head hits the pillow, I go to bed at a reasonable time and get to spend at least an hour laying there and thinking in a way I can't really control. My mind latches onto something and just goes and goes and goes a hundred miles an hour until I finally just pass out. And it really affects my mood, too. I'm pretty convinced that my motivation is down and I'm as irritated as I am today because I spent an hour last night thinking about not being able to get a job and having to deal with the embarrassment and my dad being right and my mom not even noticing how well I've been doing lately so what's the fucking point I'm a failure no matter how you look at it.

I don't know. I'm just so sick of worrying all the time.