Saturn bad aspected
(Square, opposite, and in some cases, conjunction)
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Ascendant/Saturn: very critical self-image, with a lot of weight on what you think of yourself and also what others will think of you. you may have difficulty allowing others to see who you trully are. you create a persona dissociated from what you're and present it to the world as if it were a part of yourself, going against your true personality. also, difficulties in seeing who you really are, and therefore, you are unable to present your “business card” to others as something that actually has to do with yourself.
Sun/Saturn: low self-esteem, lack of what naturally the sun must give to us, the desire to shine, believe that you can do this. lack of confidence in your potential and ability to express yourself and to be someone who has something valuable to be presented to the world. you don't believe that you can be a protagonist in the world. you may have a distorted sense of identity. in order to ensure that no one will see this fragility in your ego (sense of self, something ruled by the Sun), you will close yourself off. and when someone touches in your wounds of your fragile ego, you'll be defensive.
Moon/Saturn: you’re afraid of being emotionally exposed, of let yourself to be vulnerable. in order to guarantee this, you lock yourself in a protection tower, protecting yourself and looking like someone rigid and closed. but deep down all you want is to be nurtured. however, you believe that it will never come.
Mercury/Saturn: a lot of self-censorship. you think too much before speaking and not in a good way. lack of confidence in your intellect, intelligence, thoughts, more difficult to put out what you think, you think before and after speaking. you criticize yourself and put defects in what you said. self-critical and someone who believes that you dont have the same ability to communicate and express yourself as other people. basically, you believe you are someone dumb.
Venus/Saturn: more fearful and / or very demanding way of loving. love doesnt flow naturally, as the person tends to withdraw and not believe that it should be this time. deep down, you have an intense insecurity with love: will I be truly loved? won't I be betrayed? traumas that have already occurred in life can intensify this. fear of never being loved, and for that reason you close yourself and you never manage to surrender without fear when the love appears in your life.
Mars/Saturn: energy that has difficulties to leave the person in a natural and fluid way, the person has difficulties to feel and insert energy into things. to understand better, just think about the differences of the two planets. one rules cooler, calculating and planner signs (Saturn, that rules Capricorn and Aquarius), another rules hotter and more intense signs, of letting go with what they feel and believe based in the level of emotion / energy (Mars, that rules Aries and Scorpio). one is slow, the other is fast. here, there is a direct conflict. Mars will have a lot of blockage in the person's life, which means difficulties to put energy out, to take action, assertiveness and decision making will be very slow and complicated, energy and libido or simply having self-confidence in sexuality / sex matters it can be very difficult too. it can generate guilt and a feeling of being someone impotent and very passive for you and for life.
Jupiter/Saturn: feeling that you arent very lucky, being very pessimistic, not very expansive, a person closed to different philosophies of life and to things of deeper knowledge.
Uranus/Saturn: difficulty in having more freedom and openness, either with yourself with life, or with life with you. more pragmatic, conservative and closed, quite opposite to what Uranus usually is. less tendency to innovation, originality. more fixed and traditional thoughts and attitudes, such as Saturn.
Neptune/Saturn: problems with unconscious matters, more difficulties in dealing well with Neptunian matters, in how to escape from reality. you can live trying to fill emptiness in the wrong things, and at the same time you can be very closed psychologically, hiding your problems. you can have many psychological problems. problems with more mystical expressions and subjects, blocks with arts, music, empathy and any unconscious subject.
and, finally, it all refers to the shadow in the sense that they are things that exist in the person's mind, but that the person avoids getting in touch because it hurts and brings up vulnerabilities. or, yet, it's something that she/he learned to admit that she/he owns, and that she;/he learned to expose to the world, but that she/he knows that hurts, bothers, it’s an aspect of vulnerability, fragility. soon, there is a search to hide this. exactly what the shadow means to human beings.