so we don't have money to have the air be cool for a month or 2 so it's really really hot in the entire house, but mostly the living room. now I have limited clothes I can wear when im at home trying to stay cool, and I prefer to be in my room in limited clothes. my mom has spent the past 2 hours trying to get me out of my room, which is cooler than where she wants me to be, and I'm done. so now, she's probably trying to get me a new therapist because earlier I was trying to mention 'hey I might have this other mental illness that even you said is heavy in my bloodline because I relate too heavily to it to even begin to tell you' and my therapist had told me to look at that stuff and bring those possibilities to the guy testing me, to which she screamed at me that i am a bullshitting liar who self diagnoses. so when she asked why I didn't want to be around her I mentioned that as the first thing (which if anything, she self diagnoses herself all the time, begging the therapist she doesn't need to give her meds After the therapist told her she doesn't need them) and she started saying OH SO YOU'RE MAD AT ME FOR SELF DIAGNOSING YOURSELF and I'm like no you stupid Fuck you're not listening Fucking listen and she STARTS WRITING WHAT I'M SAYING DOWN and I'm just like FUCK THIS OK I'M NOT DOING THIS and went back to my room, I haven't heard anything since and I'm considering trying to call my papa and crying that I can't stand it here because you know what she told the guy supposed to be testing me that I'm gonna say I have bpd and to just ignore me and I FUCKING need to get out I need to get out I hate her
