#usually drunk

[falloutthedas]

Drew my friends character from our DnD campaign. By far the most time and effort I’ve poured into a digital drawing so far, but I also think it shows. I’m pretty happy with this one and hope my friend likes it too.

[obsessiveloverboy]

Y’all ever talk to gentlyobsessive? I think they just deactivated :/

((I don't think so? But to be real with you, I blog at like 4 AM.))

[girlbossrising]

wonder how many ways i can practice escapism in one night

[magemagus]

Me: I think I'll go to sleep The frat across the street: actually you're gonna listen to Taylor Swift's discography

[plasticcrotches]

i wish i had he ability to post more selfies of myself, but alas, i always look like a nutria and no one wants to see that.

[shutttityupupup]

Do you ever just get so frustrated at one simple stupid thing that it just ruins you for any other task you have in front of you? I hate feeling like this, like I can't complete even a single simple task. And I just start to malfunction as my pulse increases almost immediately and I start to flush and get nervous and embarrass myself horribly. And tonight this was me in a large crowd, and that only made everything worse. It's those moments when I start to diagnose myself with bipolar disorder. So I have to sit there and tell myself that it's okay, that I am a normal, healthy adult, and that once in a while I am allowed to feel bouts of intense emotion bubble to the surface. It's how I choose to release it that makes the difference.

I just wish that I could cast a spell for one fucking day when things would go exactly as I would like them to go. LIKE EVERYTHING. 

Sometimes I get so obsessed with the idea of being with someone, I just miss that feeling of being close to someone, to make love to, to hold hands with, to softly stroke their arm with my finger tips. Then I just meet certain people who are just fucking perfect in every way but in the one way I need them to be.  And it's frustrating. And I hate it. And everything else in my life becomes my outlet for that frustration.  

Oh, love sickness. I fall to easy and too fast. My personality doesn't let me ease up like I should. I'm too impulsive, too irrational, and let my emotions overtake me too quickly. I build alternative realities in my head, and live out an entire lifetime with someone I will never even so much as kiss. And I get angry and sad when I can't fulfill that daydream. I get upset at something that will never happened, and isn't even a really a possibility. 

I am fucking Eponine. That is me. I have always been her.