The thing about not being to afford therapy but being horribly self-aware anyway is that I KNOW why I'm feeling the way I am and what I should do about it (i.e. this person has a shitty take on my blorbo and that makes me angry because I like that character and relate to them, and while I'm allowed to feel that way I'm not allowed to be an asshole to that person for having a different opinion than me even if I feel personally attacked by it because it WASN'T a personal attack so we block and move on), I hate having to tell myself all these things. Sometimes I wanna have someone else tell me what the hell is wrong with me and what I should do about it. I CAN do it myself I just don't want to.