sitting alone in my friend’s bleak, nearly colorless apartment is really fucking depressing -- especially since there isn’t really even a desk to use my laptop comfortably -- but, like, everything costs money. not that going out for a coffee or beer somewhere would make or break me, but like, going out for multiple drinks multiple times adds up, so it seems pointless to bother. and it’s too hot to walk/bike very far, and just the train downtown is like $5 roundtrip. i’m heading to nyc in like nine or ten days, where i will have a place to stay but also would like to do some stuff with my friends from germany and detroit i met in morocco who are visiting new york and to also have a bit saved as i’m trying to find an actual job in boston, so like, i don’t really actively care about going out in charlotte except for the sake of going out itself, so it’s much more prudent to try to spend money here and nothing that isn’t keeping me alive and/or cheaply drunk, but i am going fucking stir crazy. at least there’s a dog and a pool.
