Exist For Love | Jamil x ??? (ft. Camia, Leon, Alec, Asra, & Nadia)
In which, Jamil celebrates another Heartsong Festival with his friends and family, and also prepares a gift for another special someone.
A day late for Valentine’s Day, but inspired by the most recent tale! Jamil, my biggest romantic, would never pass up an opportunity to shower his loved ones in gifts, so I just had to write something for him and this event.
(I was also able to make this into a bit of a split timeline series, so surprise to those tagged at the end. I hope you enjoy! 💖)
Title: Exist For Love by AURORA
2.3k words (total series count: 8.3k words)
Normally, Jamil was awake by the time dawn came, sitting in Camia’s rooftop garden with a cup of coffee or tea, or preparing breakfast downstairs. But today was different, and he slipped from the bed he shared with his friends long before the sky lost its quiet darkness, careful not to disturb either Camia or Leon. He had no spell to cast to keep his actions silent, but he was still able to tiptoe around the shop without waking them or Alec and Asra, and he put his plan into motion.
Out of all the holidays and celebrations he had grown up with or discovered during his travels, the Vesuvian Heartsong Festival had always been one of his absolute favorites. A day devoted to showering his loved ones with gifts and praises? He couldn’t think of a day better spent.
Before the sun’s first rays had even ghosted over the horizon, Jamil had decorated the interior of the shop from top to bottom with colorful streamers, heart-shaped pillows and fuzzy throws on the couch, heart-shaped garland wrapped around the railing of the stairs leading up to the next floor. He had started brewing coffee just as the sun peeked up and was able to turn and hand Camia her own cup just as she entered the kitchen.
“Good morning,” he said, giving her a warm smile.
She laughed through her nose, taking the cup from him. “You know, every year I think I’ll beat you awake—”
Jamil laughed. “And every year I just get up earlier.”
Smiling, she rolled her eyes. “I can’t stand you.” Taking her cup with her, she started walking back towards the stairs. “I’m going to water my plants. Don’t you dare finish making breakfast without me.”
“I haven’t even started yet!”
She waved at him over her shoulder before disappearing, and he heard her walk towards the stairs to her garden. Once he was sure she was out of earshot, he hurried to pull out all of the ingredients he would need to start breakfast. He had picked up bread from Selasi yesterday to dip into eggs, fry, and cover with powdered sugar and berries. He had some spiced sausage and fish to roast, and eggs to cook, and just as he started boiling water for tea, Camia returned.
“Jamil.”
He looked up and saw her standing in the doorway of the kitchen with her arms crossed over her chest, a pout on her face. “Hey, everything’s still cooking!” He gestured at the pans still sizzling around him. “You only said not to finish before you came back.”
Shaking her head, she bumped him with her hip at the stove, taking over the eggs from him as he started on the tea.
A few moments later, they both heard Alec’s door open upstairs, and she ran across the hallway into their room, where Leon was assumedly still sleeping. Not for long, Jamil thought with a quiet chuckle, and from the look on Camia’s face she was thinking the same. Neither of them could make out exactly what Alec was saying, but they could hear Leon’s dramatic moan of protest well enough.
While Alec wrestled with Leon to drag them out of bed, another set of feet came down the stairs, and Jamil turned to look as Asra entered the kitchen, white, curly hair going every possible direction, wiping the sleep from his eyes.
“Ah! Good morning,” Jamil said, holding out a cup to Asra, who took it with a grateful smile. “Surprised to see you up so early.”
“Well,” Asra interrupted himself with a yawn. “You know what Allie’s like today.”
Jamil did know, as they all did. While he considered himself to be the most romantic person he knew, Alec was probably a close second. Though she never managed to wake up as early as he did, she was just as excited about the day as he was. And judging by the growing sound of her arguing with Leon as they came down the stairs, this year was no different.
“I’m going to throw your gift in the garbage, you pest,” Leon grumbled, their hair loose and in their face as they were practically dragged into the kitchen by Alec.
Alec rolled her eyes, a wide grin on her face as she took in the dishes around them. “Oh, shut up—look! Breakfast is done!”
Before Leon could retort something about not being able to look, Jamil took their arm to lead them to the table, distracting them with a quick kiss on their cheek. They pouted slightly, but gave in, sitting down with Asra on their left, Jamil on their right. Camia and Alec helped bring the food to the table, Camia sitting next to Jamil, and Alec next to her, and then they all dug in.
The food was, of course, delicious, and Jamil tried not to look too proud when it was all cleared away. They all spent a few minutes chatting away and cleaning up, but once the kitchen was spotless, Alec pushed them all into the back room to exchange gifts. She claimed a spot on the floor, Asra next to her, and the other three sat on the couch.
This was probably Jamil’s favorite part. Not even seeing what his friends had gotten for him, but the looks on their faces when he handed them their gifts.
He gave Camia the newest book from a romance series she had been interested in for years—that he had been reading behind her back—and she laughed as she handed him the same book, both of them doubling over against each other on the couch.
“I think we’ve known each other for too long,” he said through tears, and she just continued to laugh, shaking her head at him.
Next, he gave Leon their gift—a new dress he had been working on for a while, a soft green that looked very nice with their skin and their dark eyes, and the fabric was something Leon had picked out themself one day at the market. Their eyes sparkled once they felt the dress and realized what it was.
“I almost completely forgot I picked this out!”
Jamil chuckled. “I thought you would, but better late than never.”
“It’s never late coming from you,” they said, and handed him their gift—small silver hoop earrings that he put on the second he opened the box they were in.
Alec was hard to get to sit still for her gift, but once she did, she almost screamed when he pulled out a new set of bangles, and she immediately put them on, giggling as they jangled around her wrists. She gave him some new colored charcoal, which he was immensely grateful for, as he had been out of his for quite some time.
Last, but not least, was Asra, and when Jamil pulled out a multicolored shawl, Asra and Alec yelled at the same time.
“I figured you needed something to match that, uh, colorful hat of yours,” Jamil explained, as Asra pulled the shawl from him excitedly. Alec groaned dramatically, covering her eyes.
“Jamil, you’re enabling him and his awful fashion sense!”
Asra stuck his tongue out at her, spinning around in his new shawl, a bright smile on his face. “He just likes me better.”
As the two of them started to bicker, Jamil laughed, standing from the couch. By now, the sun was steadily rising in the sky, and the sounds of the city outside were getting louder by the minute. He was still in his sleepwear, which was really just a pair of old pants, and he went back upstairs to change for the day.
Humming a waltz softly to himself, and listening absentmindedly to the noise from downstairs, he fished out a light pink sherwani with darker pink and green flowers woven over it, and matching pants and slippers. He ran some oil through his hair and his beard that smelled of jasmine, sandalwood, and vanilla, and pulled up half of his hair, a few strands falling out to frame his temples as the rest still sat on his shoulders.
When he came downstairs again, Camia whistled at him, Leon stretched across her lap. Alec and Asra were back in Alec’s room, judging from the sound of their voices, probably picking out their own outfits for the day.
“I haven’t seen that in a long time,” Camia said, and Jamil nodded.
“It’s hard to find an occasion for it, but today will do.”
Camia opened her mouth to say something else, but a knock at the front door stopped her. Jamil glanced out the front window, seeing the back of a palace carriage waiting in front of the shop.
“Ah, that’ll be for me.” Jamil smoothed down the front of his sherwani. Before walking to the door, he went over to Camia and Leon, pressing a quick kiss to each of their cheeks. “I love you both, I’ll see you tonight.”
“Say hi to Dia for me,” Leon said, and Jamil promised he would.
It was still early enough that the streets weren’t too busy as Jamil rode in the carriage to the palace. He smiled as he noticed the decorations in the square, the marketplace, streamers hung down alleyways and store fronts. He caught glimpses of lovers holding hands in the streets, of families heading to the market to celebrate, and his heart swelled.
He reached the palace in no time at all, and was led to a salon, where his cousin was waiting, though not without stopping a few times to say hello to people he knew throughout. Before even opening the doors to the salon, he could hear music drifting down the hall, Nadia’s graceful piano playing bringing a soft smile to his cheeks.
As soon as he pushed open the doors, she glanced up at him, looking radiant in the morning sun.
“Jamil, good morning.”
“Good morning, Nadia.” He closed the distance between them in a few strides, wrapping her in a warm hug. She let out a noise of surprise, but laughed, and hugged him back. When they let go, she shifted on the piano bench, gesturing for him to join her. He did, nudging her shoulder playfully, and she nudged him back. They both started to play a piece together, neither focusing too much on accuracy, and Nadia turned her head to him.
“How has your day been so far?”
He hummed thoughtfully. “It’s been great. I’m glad we’re able to spend some of it together.”
“I’m glad as well,” she said, smiling. “I know I am in quite high demand these days as Countess, but you’re no easier to get a hold of at times.”
Jamil laughed. “I wish I could disagree with you. But that’s what today is for, isn’t it? To spend time with those who matter most.”
“It is.”
They fell into conversation, still playing at the piano, until they finished their piece and moved to sit on the couches in the salon. Here Jamil was able to pull out the gift he had brought for her, tucked away in a small traveling bag—a few delicate tools for her machinery that she had been lamenting the loss of for months.
Nadia was thrilled, and she marveled over the quality of the tools for a long minute before remembering to give Jamil his own gift. With a clap of her hands, a few servants walked inside the salon, carrying an extremely large canvas.
“Dia, I won’t be able to carry this back to the shop,” Jamil said, shaking his head with a smile.
She waved her hand, and the servants began to flip the canvas so he could see what was on it. “I hardly expected you to. I will have it delivered to the shop. I just wanted you to be able to see it first, and for me to see your reaction.”
Jamil barely heard what she said and didn’t catch the satisfied look on her face as his jaw dropped open when the painting was revealed to him.
It was of him—him, Camia, Leon, and Alec. It looked like a memory, a snapshot of a moment, the four of them performing together in the town square. Sunlight filtered around them, faces artistically blurred as if they were in motion. Jamil could almost hear the song they could have been playing, the sound of the crowd around them.
“How…?”
“I had an artist at one of your more recent performances.” He could hear the smile in Nadia’s voice. “They were instructed to capture as much of the moment in the moment as they could, and then the rest was done from memory. I hope you, and the rest of your friends, enjoy it.”
“Oh, Dia, I love it,” Jamil whispered, swallowing back tears. “They’re all going to love it. Thank you.”
Nadia stood, gesturing to the servants to leave, and they did, but not before leaving the painting propped up for Jamil to stare at. “You’re welcome. It was very hard to keep this a secret.” She leaned gently against his arm, and he smiled, still looking at the painting.
“I can’t imagine.”
They heard a clock chime, and Jamil jumped slightly, wiping at his eyes.
“Gods, I hadn’t realized I had been here for so long already.” He glanced out the window at the sun already high in the sky.
“And here I thought I had managed to dodge the predisposition to engage in long-winded talks that runs in our family,” Nadia said, dryly, and Jamil laughed.
“No, unfortunately that’s impossible to get around, Countess,” he teased.
They hugged once more before he left, and he accepted her offer of taking another carriage back into the city, especially as it had only gotten more crowded since he arrived. As he told the driver his next destination, a warm feeling started to grow in his chest. Now, he only had one more gift left to give, and it was the most important one of the day.
✨Timeline Split✨
@atypicalacademic‘s Haider — Everybody Needs A Home
@asras3rdeye‘s Oz’mandias — Ocean In My Veins
@valhallanrose‘s Tamryn — When I Take Your Hand
@sunrisenfool‘s Valeriy — Everything Good In Life
A cozy, lovey Valjam fic for @sunrisenfool who requested the prompt 11. Morning kisses that are exchanged before either person opens their eyes, kissing blindly until their lips meet in a blissful encounter from the 50 Kisses Prompts.
In which, Jamil and Valeriy share one of many, many mornings to come together.
Title: I And Love And You by The Avett Brothers
1k words
The only thing that told Jamil that he was awake was the sound of birds outside the window. Everything else—the feeling of the lush sheets around him, Valeriy lying across his chest, hand in his, breathing softly against his skin—was just like his dream had been. He didn’t want to open his eyes in case he was still dreaming, afraid the birds could have been part of the dream as well.
Over the many, many years they had known each other, Jamil had dreamed about moments like this dozen, maybe hundreds, of times. And there had been a period, one brief year in the middle of it all, where they weren’t just dreams. Where Jamil did get to wake up holding Val close, kiss him senseless, listen to everything Val complained about with a smile on his face.
Then it had ended, like everything else the plague took away, and all Jamil had left anymore were dreams. Some of them had felt so real, so vivid, he would wake up with tears on his cheeks when he realized he was alone. He would have given anything to be back where he was now, in Valeriy’s bed, the other man wrapped around him, hair unraveled around them.
For a heartbeat, Jamil almost convinced himself that he was still dreaming, that he would open his eyes and his lover would be gone. But then he felt Val stir, his lips starting to travel slowly over Jamil’s chest.
Relief flooding through Jamil, he smiled as Val’s lips traveled higher, as if searching him out. His hands came to rest on Val’s back, running his fingers along his spine as Val held his face in his hands, kissing around his face until he landed on Jamil’s lips. It wasn’t until Val pulled back, resting his arms on the sides of Jamil’s face to prop himself up, that Jamil opened his eyes.
In the late morning sun, much later than Jamil was used to, Valeriy looked beautiful. Granted, he looked beautiful at all times of day and night, but the way the sun shone through his hair as it draped over his shoulder, and how the light caught in his eyes, almost igniting them, paired with the soft, still tired smile on his lips made him all the more stunning. Jamil wanted to capture the way he looked, before the rest of the world caught up to him, in his heart forever. He wanted to keep that little bit of Val to himself, and he wanted him to never leave his side.
What he said instead, tucking some of Val’s hair behind his ear, was: “I think that was the best night of sleep I’ve ever had in my life.”
Val laughed through his nose. “As if we did that much sleeping.”
“Well, there’s nothing saying we have to get up yet, is there?”
“Actually—”
Jamil cut him off with another kiss, rolling over to pin Val underneath him in the sheets. Whatever Val was going to say was lost as his arms wrapped around Jamil’s shoulders, his leg hooking behind Jamil’s knee. Smiling against his lips, Jamil’s hand came to rest on Val’s hip, propping himself up on his other elbow.
When they pulled apart, Val held Jamil’s face in his hands, stroking his cheeks as he looked at Jamil. Looking at Val properly in the morning light made love swell in Jamil’s chest, all of the thoughts he had been holding back coming to the front of his mind again. He pressed a kiss to the palm of Val’s hand, staring at him through his eyelashes. “I love you, Valeriy,” he murmured. “I love you so much.”
Val opened his mouth to respond, but Jamil shook his head gently and kept speaking, tracing circles into Val’s hip with his thumb.
“I want to marry you one day.” Val’s eyes widened; his breath caught in his throat. Jamil paused, kissing his hand again, and continued. “And this—this isn’t me officially asking. But I will. Because I want to marry you, and to wake up like this every day for the rest of our lives. I want to grow old with you, Val, and go wherever you want to go, do whatever you want to do, because I love you more than anything. I want to watch you be happy, I want to make you happy.
“I’ll never stop regretting the time we wasted, the time I wasted, because I was too focused on running away, but I’m done running away, and I want to spend all the time I have left with you. Every morning, every afternoon, every evening, every second in between, until you get tired of me, because I will never get tired of you. Never. You have been the love of my life since we were teenagers, baby. And we keep coming back to each other.”
Jamil blinked back the tears that were threatening to fall, smiling at Val as he fought back his own tears, face flushed. “And I can’t imagine my life without you. I love you.”
Val pulled Jamil’s face to his, kissing him deeply, both of their breaths coming out in gasps as their emotions tumbled out. Jamil knew he was trying to gather himself to reply and indulged him, kissing back as long as Val wanted him to. When he pushed back against Jamil, and he pulled away to look down at Val, they both had wet trails down their cheeks.
Letting out a choked laugh, Val wiped away his own tears. “I can’t believe I’m going to start my day with red, puffy eyes, you horrible man.”
Jamil smiled, kissing his forehead. “Should I take everything I said back then?”
Val gave him a glare, but it was softened by the way his eyes still watered. “Only if you didn’t mean it.”
“I meant every word of it.”
“Then, no. Don’t take it back.”
Finding his lips again felt better than any dream Jamil had ever had, feeling their bodies come together like they had been made for the other better than any other thought in his mind. There was nothing, no one, he wanted more.
Feeling immeasurably soft over this commission of Jamil and Valerius that I just got from @tattahsketches / @tattah.art on IG! Thank you so much, they are so beautiful!!
Just, everything about this is perfect—from Valerius’s ever-present frown to the way Jamil is holding him still I—🥺 Don’t mind me crying over this for the rest of my life
