★ - Valk and Lexi!
The handsome pelt of a starving wolf, the wild hanging from its bones with each step straining its tentative survival. Elegance of the wilderness seeping deep beneath the fragile skin of a mere person, beauty existing in the same frame and breath as violence unimaginable, violence inescapable dealt with his own judgment held like that of Kemos.
For some time I have written such analogies, but analogies do not do him justice. They are trite; concoctions of a scientist who must understand all yet struggles to understand a man who defies full knowing. In my years I have met many like him, men who have the confidence of wild predators in their eyes, ones who have never truly accepted their places in life, no matter how entitled and privileged those places might be. People who cannot be satisfied by whatever they hold in their hands, because they are always drawn to more, to achieving and creating beyond what any cassian could. And yet he stands apart. He always stands apart; I wonder if he always will.
I struggle to accept it, but I cannot describe him. Any words I have fail to give him justice, the way he surpasses my expectations and breaks through my preconceptions with each day that I let him close. I am a smart man, perhaps even one of the most intelligent in my fields, yet he is beyond me, beyond all that I am and all that I can understand.
I will never meet another like him. I am not certain I would want to even if I could. He is more than enough to keep a scientist intrigued for a lifetime and far more dangerous than any subject I could ever study. Clever, intelligent, graceful with the manners and inherent violence of the aristocratic system I left behind me decades before, both a man and an animal, both civilized and beyond civilization. Educated and poetic, learned and philosophical; while I cannot distill the smallest fraction of his essence into proper words, I do not doubt that he could easily describe both of us without my constant struggle.
Bolding Meme; Lexi and Valkurius
I like you / I hate you / I dislike you when you defy my expectations, when you go against my beliefs / I love you / You are family as much as I have it, as much as I would be loathe to admit it / I would take a bullet for you, as I would for most / I would shoot you / I would lie to your face / I would say something cruel to you on purpose / I would say something cruel to you accidentally, and I am certain that I do it often / I would cheat on you / I would physically hurt you if you forced me to defend others from yourself / You annoy me / You amuse me with your stubbornness, though I know better than to laugh at you / I’d laugh at you / I’d laugh with you if I laughed with anyone / I’d manipulate you if I thought it would keep you safe for longer / You scare me far more than I would readily admit / You confuse me each and every day / I wish I knew you better / I trust you more than I trust most / I don’t trust you / You inspire me / I consider you an equal / You are beneath me / You’re better than me / I would trust you with my life if I thought you valued it more than your principles / I think know you’re cruel mean / I think you’re more petty than you know / I think you’re childish / I think you’re smart / I think you’re stupid / I’m not certain if I think you’re a bad person / I certainly don’t think you’re a good person / I’m not sure what kind of person you are / I wish you would listen to me / I want to make you proud / I wish you would notice me far more than you do / I want to impress you far more than I would admit / I would not hurt other people for you (unless it was the only way to protect you) / I’m not sure how I don’t think there is a way to make you happy / I’m a bad influence on you / You deserve better than me / We make a great team / I’d have a one night stand with you if I had those anymore / I’d have a relationship with you if I could trust myself with one / I would marry you / I fantasize about our life together / I would trust you with my most treasured belonging / I would tell you some of my darkest secrets / You disgust me / You intimidate me more than I will ever, ever admit / I hope I intimidate you / I’d hug you / I’d let you hug me / I’m scared terrified of losing you / I don’t think you like me / I want to be better for you / I respect you as much as I do anyone, although that says very little / I don’t respect you / You’re my mentor / You’re my friend / You’re my best friend / I have a crush on you / I could easily watch you die / I’d get drunk with you / I’d party with you / I’d comfort you / I’d prank you / I’d spike your drink / I’d act behind your back / I’d abandon you / I’d hurt you to get what I want, although I would reason it away to myself / I would choose my happiness over yours if you stood in my way / I would choose your happiness over mine possibly, if I knew it would truly make you happy / I despise how much I care for you / I need you / I’m dependent on you and others I let close to me / I don’t know what I’d do without you / I’m scared of you leaving me when you leave me / I’d give my life for you / You frustrate me / I’d call for you in a time of need / I would protect you / I’d visit you in hospital / I’d carry you if you were hurt / I’d feel guilty if I hurt you / I’d let you be near me when I am vulnerable / I’d ignore a phone call from you / I’d call you at 3am / I’d break you out of jail / I’d get angry at you / I would shout at you / You’re too loud / You’re too quiet / You’re too sensitive / You can’t take a joke / You embarrass me / I feel nothing for you / You’re reckless / You’re bossy / You bore me / I would ask your advice / I would blame you for something I did / I would cry in your arms / You have the power to hurt me more than anyone else /
